#ALSO i think itd be epic if shad tried to get laurance as his vessel at first

[lucindasthighs]

hmmgh thinking about laurance but his shadow knight powers connect him to the environment. And he HATES it.

He wants to pretend that he's not changed, that he can go back to a normal life- But he can hear the tremble of the earth as the memories of old gods vibrate through it; he can sense the withering of plants, the decay of corpses in his vicinity.

The feeling he hates the most is the burning, vicious hatred in the back of his consciousness. It's not his - it's old and faded, like the imprints of letters in a worn book. Sometimes, he can't even tell it's there. But he's quickly reminded when he gazes at Irene Aphmau, and it flares with intensity, like an old wound that never healed.

It's not his...right?

#used old twice in the same paragraph raaghgh #anyway AHGGHG SK LAURANCE ANGST BRAINROTTT #i want him to be doomed by narrative. #i want him to be terrified of losing more than he already has. i wanthim to be backed into a corner in his own mind #and when he leaves to the nether i want him to be defeated #not angry or bitter or anything. just tired. tired of fighting against himself #ALSO i think itd be epic if shad tried to get laurance as his vessel at first #like hes always with aphmau the woman he thinks he wants revenge against. #maybe he wouldnt know shit in s1 but after she gets the relic from the irene dimension theres no way he doesnt sense her #“wrote a whole other post in the tags bye 😭” #aphmau #aphblr #aphverse #minecraft diaries #laurance zvahl #mcd laurance #mcd aphmau #shad the destroyer #irene the matron