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seariii · 4 months

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That was the best sleep I've had in months....

I had two dreams ... Under the cut because it'll probably be long. This is mostly for myself heh

The first one was... It was the middle of the night, pitch black on my room, it was raining and there was a thunderstorm. I was terrified, I wanted to cry and so I was covering my whole body with my covers. I kept hearing noises which made my panic worse until I started hearing a meowing.

I was confused and hesitantly uncovered my head and opened my curtain (where the meowing was coming from), not looking anywhere else. Then I saw a cat, an.... Orange? Beige? Cat. The cat was crying and looked scared and cold, so instinctively I opened the window and moved the net so the kitty could get in.

I tried to grab the cat but it scratched me and I started to panic once more "I just let a random cat into my room wth am I gonna do when my mom finds out". Even so, I tried to put the covers I was using in a certain way so the cat would use it as a nest and then I covered them up.

I had to get another set of covers for me but that's okay. The cat slept nicely and the next morning I was allowed to pet 'em, it was nice.

A while later, my mom opened my door and yelled at me that what was I doing with a cat, then it changed pov and I got it from the cat. Apparently the kitty was meowing for a while, but on my brother's window, and when I opened the curtain and let them in, they were really happy and it was like a little light and warmth. The cat hated my brother and wasn't sure what to do or feel towards my mom.

Then I woke up, it was like 3am

I can't remember if it was a male or female cat... And I don't like calling animals it...

Anyways that's that, now the second one!

I.... Don't remember exactly how it started, but I had to go to the hospital with my family for something. As my mom and brother went to get it, I stayed behind on the waiting room. I was looking around and spotted someone i knew, two people actually. I immediately tensed up "I hope they don't see me".

I kept panicking and avoiding eye contact, until my family came back. My brother wanted to buy something to drink from the hospital cafeteria and so we got on line. I was behind them, and looked like I was on my own. When they started to order, I took a peak and saw that they also sold stickers and glue and other cute stuff. I didn't have money do it for as a no go but I loved to see it.

Then someone snapped me out of it, it was one of the people i recognize with their mom. The mom asked if I could let them in on the line, and as the people pleaser k am, I said yes without thinking. When my family was done i nodded my head to the mom and let them in on line as I left. I then looked behind and saw how long the line was and felt really conflicted on letting her cut in line.

When we were walking on the parking lot, my brother said he would drive, my mom was like "you sure?" And then he went sike. I laughed and said I would do it, I've done it before (on my dreams lmao). Mom didn't listen and she was getting ready to drive. The car was on a weird position tho, between a pole and a wall, and my mom didn't know how to get it out of there. A man appeared and said he would help, my brother and I got on the car and I told him to help me ... Undo? The hand break. The man had grabbed the car and was pulling it as if it was a toy, but he got us out if that weird problem.

For some reason, I wanted to prove I could get home on my own? So I left them and began making my way on a scooter????

At first I was doing great, but I was going on the middle of the road, and a couple things started going wrong. Like, I passed by a garage sale and saw something nice, but the guy assumed I was gonna steal it. I kept going and eventually got inside a mall (idk why) and as I was going I saw a store full of cute stuff. I stopped and looked at the things on display. They had itta bags! And I've been searching for one!

At that moment was when I noticed. As I was walking in, I saw in my reflection that I was a man and I was like "oh ... Okay then" and went in not caring at all lmao.

I started seeing everything, all was so cute! They had keychains, posters, plusies, bags, I was in paradise! But a lady talked to me and said they needed my number for a survey on the store and I was like (⁠´⁠；⁠ω⁠；⁠｀⁠) but I've already done it before. To which she answered "yes, but on another store, not this one" so I agreed because I couldn't say no.

I answered some questions and then continue browsing. I saw they had mangas and when I saw the had the Shugo Chara one I ran to it and wanted to buy it, but it came in a broken bag and I wasn't sure if I could buy it. Another of the ladies that worked there got close to me and kneeled down beside me as we kept looking through the shelf. the other mangas they had didn't matter to me, so I was talking with the lady and asking how I could get this one manga. She took it and said she was gonna ask

On the mean time I continued browsing and reached the skin care isle, I started looking through the products and wondering if I should get something. Then the lady came back with an annoyed expression and started to complain about me. Saying "you are trying to hard. Just because you enter a place like this doesn't mean anything. You giving your number and going along with the survey was such a desperate act of you, huh? You are pathetic" and I was confused and just answered "... You are angry I don't know how to say no?"

Anyways, I didn't buy anything and started to leave. I got back on my scooter and went away. I almost drove over someone, and as I'm as about to leave the mall I saw someone about to get their ass beaten up, so I came in between and politely asked the other person not to. Idk if it worked but then I went outside.

As I was leaving I hear the lady from before call out to me, yelling my name (no actual name was heard tho, my dreams never assign names). I groaned and rolled my eyes, I slowed down but didn't stop. She reached me and started to apologize and.... flirting??? In my little aroace spec mind, she thought I had money and was trying to get something out of me. I, of course, rejected her and tried to go away. But she kept standing in front of my path and one time she actually hopped on the scooter and hugged me.

I was done, I hated this so much. I stopped and told her to get off and let go of me. She didn't listen and I was about to go crazy.

For some reason I just kept going with her holding me like that. It was starting to get dark and I didn't know where I was. I was debating on using Google maps, but for some reason I didn't want to.

I was trying to cross a big road, but the cars never stopped coming. So I waited until it looked like not s lot were coming and I tried to cross it was difficult af. When I was about to reach the other side a car was coming from my right. They were slow and k stopped so they cold pass in front of me. Well, the car didn't stop and trying to avoid me (I was out of their way), really slowlytook a turn and kept going until it slowly hit the wall. It was barely a small bump into the wall, but I saw the driver pissed, saying it was my fault and I was gonna need to pay it. "It wasn't my fault" idk if I said it or thought it.

I went away and took a on the first street so I didn't have that person close anymore. As I was doing that I heard the man start laughing like crazy, and with that, with it being dark now, with not knowing where we are I panicked badly. I started to move faster and told the lady to call my mom and told her the number.

My panic was increasing by the second because I really didn't know where we were and it was getting darker and darker, plus I was afraid the man was following us.

Before my mom could answer I woke up... It was a weird dream... And I kinda wanna go back to sleep...

That's all

#dream diary #seari dream diary

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diecrotic · 4 years

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[ENG Translation] ツキアカリのミチシルベ (ステリオポニー)

Song Title Romaji: Tsukiakari no Michishirube English Title: Guidance of Moonlight Artist: Stereopony Opening theme for the 2007 anime Darker than Black: Gemini of the Meteor* Amateur translation. Feel free to send corrections.

i’ve never watched darker than black; i just happen to like stereopony. the title is almost entirely in katakana, but the kanji would have been 月明りの道しるべ. michishirube’s definition in the japanese-english dictionary is ‘signpost’ but its usage is more of as ‘guide’ or ‘guidance’, as far as i see.

ORIGINAL JAPANESE/KANJI

答えのない毎日がただ過ぎてゆく時間がこれから先どうなるのだろう? わからない・・・闇よりも深い夜の孤独に惑わされてただれかに今気づいてほしい・・・ここから逃げ出したいから

窓から見える朝焼け部屋に鳴り響く音アラームに起こされて薄暗い中家飛び出すよ

カバンの中には何も変わらない平凡詰め込んでそしていつもの場所へ

だれかが言った言葉が気になって惑わされて争いたくなんてないから何も言えない夢や理想はあるけれど気持ちばかり先に行って現実がずっと後ろからボクを見てる

ねぇだれか教えてみんなそうなのかな? 今日が幸せならそれでいいと思えるって

幼いころには確かにあったよ夢を追いかけてたでもそれも遠い記憶

答えのない毎日がただ過ぎてゆく時間がこれから先どうなるのだろう? わからない・・・ツキアカリのミチシルベ雲を越えボクに届け進むべき道を照らしてよ今日がどんなに壊れそうでも

何があっても何があっても信じてたいからあの日の遠い記憶呼び覚ますから忘れないでね胸に刻みつけ

答は自分の中に必ずあるものだからあきらめないで強く生きることをやめないで悲しすぎて前に進めない時でも共に悩み歩んだぼくらに風は吹くどこまででも

ROMAJI

kotae no nai mainichi ga tada sugiteyuku jikan ga kore kara saki dou naru no darou? wakaranai yami yori mo fukai yoru no kodoku ni madowasareteta dareka ni ima kidzuitehoshii koko kara nigedashitai kara

mado kara mieru asayake heya ni narihibiku oto araamu ni okosarete usugurai naka ie tobidasu yo

kaban no naka ni wa nani mo kawaranai heibon tsumekonde soshite itsumo no basho e

dareka ga itta kotoba ga ki ni natte madowasarete arasoitaku nante nai kara nani mo ienai yume ya risou wa aru keredo kimochi bakari saki ni itte genjitsu ga zutto ushiro kara boku wo miteru

nee dareka oshiete minna sou na no ka na? kyou ga shiawase nara sore de ii to omoeru tte?

osanai koro ni wa tashika ni atta yo yume wo oikaketeta demo sore mo tooi kioku

kotae no nai mainichi ga tada sugiteyuku jikan ga kore kara saki dou naru no darou? wakaranai tsukiakari no michishirube kume wo koe boku ni todoke susumu beki michi wo terashite yo kyou ga donna ni kowaresou de mo

nani ga atte mo nani ga atte mo shinjitetai kara ano hi no tooi kioku yobisamasu kara wasurenaide ne mune ni kizamitsuke

kotae wa jibun no naka ni kanarazu aru mono dakara akiramenaide tsuyoku ikiru koto wo yamenaide kanashisugite mae ni susumenai toki de mo tomo ni nayami ayunde bokura ni kaze wa fuku doko made de mo

ENGLISH

In an everyday where no answers can be found In a time that just keeps passing by What could happen from here? I don’t know Deeper than any darkness, the loneliness of the night made me lose my way I wish someone would notice me right now I want to run away from here

The sunrise colors I can see from my window The sounds that reverberate in the room I’m awakened by the alarm While it’s still dim, I fly out of the house

The things inside my bag remain unchanged It’s jam packed with normalcy as I head to the usual places

The things that people say get to me and make me lose my way I don’t feel the need to compete over anything and so I don’t say anything I have dreams and goals, but I move forward with nothing but feelings Surely, reality is watching me from behind

Hey, someone please tell me Is it like this for everyone? Does everyone else also think “If I’m happy today, then that’s okay”?

Certainly, when I was younger there was a time I chased my dreams But that’s a distant memory

In an everyday where no answers can be found In a time that just keeps passing by What could happen from here? I don’t know To the guidance given off by the moonlight, please pass the clouds and come to me and illuminate the path I’m supposed to take no matter how much it looks like today is going to get destroyed

No matter what happens, no matter what happens I want to believe Those distant memories will wake me up Don’t forget, okay? Carve them into your chest

The answer is inside of me and it always has been I won’t ever stop living strong without giving up Even for us, who once upon a time were filled with sadness and couldn’t move forward, who walked a path full of worry, The wind will blow no matter where we may be

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SOME THOUGHTS

FIRST OF ALL this is such a great song with a nice sentiment and beautiful melody, and i was shocked to find out it’s apparently an anime opening because it’s not obvious at all. if i were a more positive person, i would make this song my personal anthem

as for the nitty gritty of the translation and the japanese, i would like to discuss a question i’ve had for years now: why do they sometimes spell words in katakana for no overt reason? going into japanese study, you’ll always be told that katakana is used for spelling foreign words, but then it’s used for tsukiakari, michishirube, AND most importantly, 僕 or boku--which is a recurring thing across japanese speakers. they like spelling boku in katakana. but then later on in the song, 僕ら or bokura which is just plural of boku is spelled in hiragana. why? i don’t know. would appreciate input on the writing systems and conventions

this is a bit of an easier song to translate, though i do wonder if my interpreting 照らしてよ or terashite yo as some sort of pleading request is correct, because in casual speech the use of the verbs’ -te forms is kind of liberal and not something i understand completely. shoutout to my favorite part: the first three lines of the final chorus. its structure in the original japanese is lovely and i’m just sad i didn’t get to capture the punch in english.

#ro translates #amateur translation #stereopony #tsukiakari no michishirube #darker than black #japanese translation #lyrics translation

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