#Although I do want to work on writing Yani better

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Here we go again talking about "Mine" and explaining my absence. For the past month or two I've been questioning myself if I want to put Mine on a hiatus(Which I didn't feel was surprising considering that I've vented about the game so much on this blog, I'm sorry for that). I wouldn't be getting rid of it and I would be heading back to it eventually, but I just needed to step away and really think about what I wanted to do. At this point in time I'm still questioning what I want to do. Long story short Mine won't be getting released any time soon and it needs a lot of work to be done on it, in every way.

I think my biggest issue was rushing into this project. I was so SO excited to just get my story out and talk about my characters and ideas, but I had almost nothing set in stone or planned out. Some of my favorite story aspects I created after I made this blog, granted it wasn't a obvious change since it had to do with spoilers, and story aspect kind of just fit together to make a bigger plot twist. I still love what I've created thus far, but it needs so much work, and it feels weird and off to have changes just happen with the characters and story.

I was getting bored of certain characters and the art style. I won't be getting rid of any characters because even the ones who don't seem that important to the overall plot are still important, but I'll be changing/upgrading character designs. And especially changing the art style. I was really disliking my style for Mine and even more so after the Halloween drawing. I did practice around a bit and I found a style I like, but it's still not set in stone.

This is kind of what I was thinking. The eyes have a more defined shape, the nose is different, the hair is more detailed. I've also been wanted to mess around with coloring and shading. And once again this style is not set in stone, but this is what I'm leaning towards as of now. I want the game to have an anime style for reasons, but I did also try a style that's more mine I guess? Like I drew Yani in the style I draw in the most, the style that's most consistent to me. I mainly did this because one my bestfriends has been helping me sort out my own feelings and she said to at least try a more cartoon style even if the anime style is what I'm aiming for in the end.

I obviously I do like the style, but it's just not what I'm going for, so I was going to try drawing different eyes styles and then I would build a face to match that.

I did like these, but it didn't inspire me and I didn't want these for Mine. So this is what I've been working on for now, I'm trying t build my interest in this story again. I know I've talked about it before, but Yani and Jun's designs are the ones I'm most proud about(maybe Aki as well, if I change anything it wouldn't be too extreme), but the other characters will be getting an upgrade, in design, story, and personality.

Minato in particular. I feel so bad because as much as I like Minato, he feels so plain to me. Like I don't have fun writing him or drawing him. There are things I do really enjoy about him, like his hair style, and his yellow eyes. But I'm bored with pretty much everything else about him, and that's not a good sign, he's the first route, the first character to be released. he needs something to draw in the player, but I don't feel like he has that. I don't know where to really go with him though. I think the fact that he's the least yandere is charming and important, like to lure the player into a false sense of security, almost as if they were just playing a normal visual novel/dating sim with routes, and then the creepy stuff starts mainly happening with the other routes, but obviously I need something to make his route exciting.

In the meantime asks will most likely not be answered until I've figured the characters out more. When I figure out the characters as well, I want to go back and slowly work on updating previous asks to fit the new personality and stories. I'll probably make a poll on how to go about that just in case people want the old answered asks or something. Maybe I could just do something like-

Old: bhjdhsvjagjhasgd

New: VHJDhfdjgshdf

I don't know as of now. I also want to go back and update my 100 followers event drawings, and obviously finish that. Which by the way I am so sorry to everyone who sent in requests, for that event and just in general. Me struggling with Mine's art style has been a thing, even with the refs, there were some refs that I just hated how they turned out(cough cough Hoshi). I also have been practicing with more cartoon(?) styles, so working on a game with an anime style reminds me of my past styles, which I hated because I got those feeling of hating my style or falling behind my peers who were finding their style. I'm a lot better with it now, but I felt like I was falling back into old habits/styles, and it was upsetting.

While I was planning my hiatus, I kept thinking about some of my other game ideas because if I was going to go on hiatus I would focus on another one of my games with a more simple style(Since I wondered if complexity of the style was also an issue for my lack of motivation with Mine), and I do like my other games and ideas and characters, but none of hem were appealing to me like how Mine did. I went into Mine so excited and ready to talk and share my characters, but with my other stories I was just feeling more unmotivated with them, other then "The Magi Academy" which makes sense since that is my comfort story but also I'm gonna work on this in the background since the game is huge.

Another thing I thought about doing while on hiatus was making a test game, where I get used to making games, where I practice. Cause Mine is my first game, but I'm not sure I want it to actually be my first game, but I have no interest in my other games as of now so this game would be simple, a little test to get used to everything that comes with making a game. I'll probably work on this while I'm working on the art style for Mine and the character designs. It will have multiple routes and characters. I wouldn't really call it a dating sim, there will be romance elements but I think more then anything it will be a little "get to know my oc's" type story. Maybe I'll talk about it more if anyone if interested. Although when I make games in the future I'll either make the blogs later, when the game is almost finished or if finished, or at least claim the name and work on them later.

I'd say that Mine is going on a hiatus, at least with this blog, but I will be working on it! Mine won't be getting released soon and when I made this blog I didn't expect Mine to come out this year. Another thing I want to end up doing is dev logs, maybe weekly or monthly, it won't happen soon, but eventually I want to do dev logs. As of now though, I have a lot to think about with the characters and the story/stories. I'll probably work on character personalities and stories before their actual design so I can get back to writing asks, and then I'll be redoing refs and any bigger drawings I've done so far. I also want to have a schedule for answering asks, so I'll probably spend the weekends answering asks and then the weekdays I'll be working on the game, but this is for the future. My ask box and messages will be open though if anyone has any questions :3 I hope that this will help me regain the passion and excitement that I hold for this story, have a great day/night, and thank you for you continued support🩵

#Sorry for my absence #it will happen again #Jun and Yani will stay pretty much the same #their designs are more what I'm used to #more detailed I guess #if they do get any change it wouldn't be too extreme #Although I do want to work on writing Yani better #really amplifying those yandere tendencies #esp the identity theft since that was a really interesting topic to write!! #I don't plan on changing everything about the other characters either though just things that I think could use some changing and updating #id like to keep you guys updated with character designs and art style ideas though! #sorry to come back with some negative news but i wanted to come clean and be honest about my feelings with mine

[bangtan-spells]

92 Truths~  tag game

Rules:  write 92 truths about yourself then tag 25 people.

Thanks to @ulookatme-ilookintoyou for taggin us 💕

Em👸🏽

LAST…

[1] drink: Cold green tea!

[2] phone call: Called my aunt to please pick me up hahaha

[3] text message: I think it was to the same aunt.

[4] song you listened to: Fun by Troye Sivan.

[5] Time you cried: yesterday evening, I’m super sensitive for a lot of things going on in my life so yeah, I was talking about it and cried a lil tiny bit

HAVE YOU EVER…

[6] Dated someone twice: uh no (don’t think I would anyway)

[7] Been cheated on: hmmm let’s say no, but I think one of my boyfriends did, I’m just not 100% sure about it, the asshole...

[8] Kissed someone and regretted it: Yes! it was a friendship sacrifice so... but still yuck.

[9] lost someone special: Yes, but not recently.

[10] Been depresed: Yes, been there.

[11] gotten drunk and thrown up: lol yes, and I don’t like to remember those times, thank you very much.

LIST 3 FAVORITE COLORS:

[12] White

[13] Pink

[14] Purple

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU…

[15] made new friends: Met a lot of people, but I don’t consider them friends yet whatsoever.

[16] fallen out of love: Nah

[17] laughed until you cried: Of course! it’s one of life’s pleasures

[18] found ppl were talking about you: nothing bad actually, just nice things, I’m cool like that 😎

[19] met someone who change you: I guess not?

[20] found out who your true friends are:They are the same as always!

[21] kissed someone on your facebook list: No

GENERAL…

[22] how many of your facebook friends do you know irl: Most of them, I’m not that active on fb anyways.

[23] do you have any pets: No, sadly.

[24] do you want to change your name: Well, this is tricky, I’m not the biggest fan of my name but I guess it’s alright to keep it.

[25] what did you do your last birthday: Chilled with grandpa and slept on his bedroom hahaha, I celebrated it like 9 days later.

[26] what time did you wake up: 5:10am (dying internally)

[27] what were you doing at midnight last night: Talking with a friend and simultaneously reading one of the new requests we got for Jin that I finished (I’m my number one fan💞 gotta keep myself going)

[28] name something you cannot wait for: Leaving this country.

[29] when was the last you saw your mother: I honestly can’t recall exactly, like two months? one, or more? something of the sort.

[30] what is one thing you wish you could change about your life: I guess my personal health, if I could.

[31] what are you listening right now: Touch by Troye Sivan!

[32] have you talked to someone named Tom: Never.

[33] something that is gettin on your nerves: Inefficient people! jesus freaking christ, I’ve been dealing with them the whole day and I just hate it, I don’t have time for inefficiency  because other’s don’t freaking do what they have to!!!

[34] most visited websibe: Have to be tumblr and youtube.

[35] elementary: Finished, I was cute, naive and nerdy.

[36] high school: Finished, I was a cool nerd through that hahaha.

[37] college: Finished two years ago! I was cooler and fabulous, burned my eyelashes studying in almost every semester, college made me grow up a lot and learn a lot of things about myself and others, I’m glad it’s already over but it was a good experience🤓

[38] hair color: Dark brown.

[39] long or short hair: I’m fan of both, but currently I’m digging long hair the most.

[40] do you have a crush on someone: Awn, yes, I actually met such a fine man past week, I’m speechless, he’s boyfriend material and I’m 8 out of 10 seeing him at work very soon again aaaahhh

[41] what do you like about yourself: Physically, my body shape, my freckles and beauty/birth marks, my eyes, my voice, my hands. About my personality, hmmm, my endurance, my drive to succeed, my constancy, my imagination, my strong will, my confidence on the days it shines. I’m trying to tell myself the things I love about me more.

[42] piercings: On my ears only.

[43] blood type: B-

[44] nickname: Em, Enicito, Yani, some in my family call me maravillita which is something like little wonder too.

[45] relationship status: Single (but mentally in a long term relationship wih my alpha boyfriend Jin 💕 )

[46] zodiac sign: I’m a Scorpio babe.

[47] pronouns: She/Her

[48] fav tv show: GOT, Say Yes To The Dress, Cupcake War, the gourmet channel, oh and what not to wear.

[49] tattoos: A tiny one on my right ribs.

[50] right or left hand: I use the right.

FIRST…

[51] surgery: None yet.

[52] piercings: None besides the ones on my ears.

[53] best friend: Mars💖

[54] sport: Llike the first I played? idk must have been volleyball, it was the only one I was good at.

[55] Vacations: God, must have been to the capital I suppose.

[56] pair of trainers: I have no idea what this is.

RIGHT NOW…

[57] eating: Pineapple.

[58] drinking: Cold green tea.

[59] im about to: Get into bed and probably talk until late with a friend that is staying over.

[60] listening to: Shape Of You, by Ed Sheeran (love,love,love)

[61] waiting for: Success, luck and wealth in my future!

[62] want: A big big chocolate bar, I’m craving it, oh and flips too but I’m currently banned from buying sweets.

[63] get married: Hopefully I will someday with Mr. Right.

[64] career: I’m a Lawyer.

WHICH IS BETTER…

[65] hugs or kisses: both, but I’m picking hugs.

[66] lips or eyes:  I recently discovered I have a thing for full lips, but I’m still picking eyes for this.

[67] shorter or taller: On the man I like? Taller❤️ in anybody else, whatever.

[68] older or younger: I guess older.

[69] romantic or spontaneous: Awn both, I cannot...

[70] nice arms or nice stomach: Nice arms to pick me up with because I’m a princess!!! 🙈

[71] sensible or loud: Let’s say sensible,but not that sensible.

[72] hook up or relationship: hahaha what is this? this depends of the situation and person you’re being with, but a relationship it is.

[73] troublermaker or hesitant:  A perfect mixture of both. Hesitancy gets on my nerves and a total troublemaker would get on my bad side sometimes.

HAVE YOU EVER…

[74] kissed a stranger?: Yeah.

[75] drank hard liquor: Yes, in this country you go ride or die with liquor.

[76] lost glasses/contac lenses: Yes, when I was a child I lost my glasses.

[77] turned someone down: Yes.

[78] sex on the first date?:  Not yet honey.

[79] broken someone’s heart: I guess not? Idk

[80] had your heart broken?: Yes, it’s all part of experience, makes you learn good things for the rest of your life.

[81] been arrested?: No.

[82] cried when someone died?:Yes, when my grandma did.

[83] fallen for a friend: I had a crush on a friend once.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN…

[84] yourself: Absolutely, I try to always do it.

[85] miracles?: Yes

[86] love at first sight?: No. Attraction at first sight on the other hand, yes.

[87] santa clouse?: hahaha I will if he brings me gifts. I need new makeup Santa, please.

[88] kiss on the first date?: Yes, if the feel is right.

[89] angels?: A total yes for this.

OTHER…

[90] current best friend’s name: Mars 👸💞

[91] eye color: Dark brown

[92] favorite movie: The Corpse Bride it’s an all time favorite, no matter my age.

Mars 👸🏻

LAST…

[1] drink: Black coffee. 

[2] phone call: The bank, cries.

[3] text message: a friend to meet up later!

[4] song you listened to: Sexy Movimiento by Wisin Y Yandel (why every time I do these things I’m listening to reggaeton???)

[5] Time you cried: I don’t know, two weeks ago, yey, beating records right here, no cry no more. 

HAVE YOU EVER…

[6] Dated someone twice: Yes, and it’s no fun lmao.

[7] Been cheated on: Yes.

[8] Kissed someone and regretted it: Oh yes, I wish I could unkiss.

[9] lost someone special: Yes.

[10] Been depresed: Yes.

[11] gotten drunk and thrown up: Yeah lol more than I’d like to admit.

LIST 3 FAVORITE COLORS:

[12] Pink

[13] Black

[14] Grey

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU…

[15] made new friends: Yes, some didn’t last but yeah.

[16] fallen out of love: No.

[17] laughed until you cried: Yes!!! and oh god it’s the best feeling ever.

[18] found ppl were talking about you: Yes yes, good and bad, but we can’t control what other people do or think so...

[19] met someone who change you: Nah.

[20] found out who your true friends are:I found out this a long time ago.

[21] kissed someone on your facebook list: No.

GENERAL…

[22] how many of your facebook friends do you know irl: I don’t use Facebook lol but when I had one I knew a lot.

[23] do you have any pets: Yes!!! Her name is Paris and she’s a beautiful Alaskan Malamute, so beautiful although we are not together at the moment, cries❤️💔

[24] do you want to change your name: Not anymore, there was a time I wanted a cooler name but the hell, my name is pretty.

[25] what did you do your last birthday: I had a great day at NYC, it was amazing, I went to sephora and then ate japanese, what else could I have asked for??

[26] what time did you wake up: 8am!

[27] what were you doing at midnight last night: Writing!! Yes Yes, I was writing a Taehyung scenario.

[28] name something you cannot wait for: Being economically stable on my own.

[29] when was the last you saw your mother: A week ago, I won’t see her for a long time, gonna miss that girl and her amazing cooking.

[30] what is one thing you wish you could change about your life: I have to be more motivated.

[31] what are you listening right now: Beautiful by Crush, one minute reggaeton and one minute this, that’s how my brain works lol.

[32] have you talked to someone named Tom: No.

[33] something that is gettin on your nerves: My bank!!!! I cannot deal with banks.

[34] most visited websibe: Tumblr or youtube. 

[35] elementary: Finished, following Em’s line I’d say I was mischievous and rebellious.

[36] high school: Finished, I was a rebel for the most part, but I was pretty cool and popular so it was fun lol

[37] college: Same as Em I finished two years ago (wow it’s been a while) I had many stages at college, I studied a lot, but I also partied a lot, I knew a lot of people and did a lot of crazy things, some things weren’t the best but at the end it was all great because I learned a lot.

[38] hair color: Dark brown.

[39] long or short hair: Long hair all the way.

[40] do you have a crush on someone: No, and I’m kind of angry because I want a crush lmao, but I’vent find someone I like recently.

[41] what do you like about yourself: Well let’s start physically, I love my hands and my legs, I like how I’m a bit short but my body shape is elegant since I have long and slender legs and arms. I love my hair, my lips, my a+ boobs no shame here. And about my personality I love my imagination, the way I speak, I love how I can be both very friendly but very reserved at times, I love the way I can adapt to certain things, I love my empathy to others, I love many things about myself!

[42] piercings: Right now two on both ears.

[43] blood type: A.

[44] nickname: Mars, here on tumblr. Mary, Pachi, Garza (which is heron in spanish).

[45] relationship status: Single, of course Min Yoongi would beg to differ but I’m not an easy girl 😈

[46] zodiac sign: Sagittarius.

[47] pronouns: She/Her

[48] fav tv show: GoT, The Walking Dead, What not to wear, everything in discovery id, American Horror Story, etc.

[49] tattoos: None.

[50] right or left hand: Right.

FIRST…

[51] surgery: Just one.

[52] piercings: I got one in my tongue once, I’m telling you, I was a rebel lmao.

[53] best friend: My first best friend was named Natasha, she’s an awesome girl, I’ve seen her in a while but I wish her the best!

[54] sport: I don’t remember the first I played, but I was in tennis classes once so...

[55] Vacations: To Margarita I guess, we traveled a lot while I was a child and I don’t remember. 

[56] pair of trainers: What?

RIGHT NOW…

[57] eating: Nothing.

[58] drinking: I finished my coffee a while ago.

[59] im about to: Either write or go out.

[60] listening to: Not Today by BTS.

[61] waiting for: The plans for today to know what I’m going to wear.

[62] want: More makeup, more money, more love. But chicken and beer would be nice too.

[63] get married: Yes yes, I hope someday.

[64] career: I’m a Lawyer.

WHICH IS BETTER…

[65] hugs or kisses: I like both, but I’m picking kisses today!

[66] lips or eyes: Eyes!

[67] shorter or taller: My man has to be taller than me, which is not difficult lol

[68] older or younger: Older?

[69] romantic or spontaneous: Both are amazing.

[70] nice arms or nice stomach: Nice arms, and nice hands!!!! If he doesn’t have nice hands I cannot. 

[71] sensible or loud: Sensible.

[72] hook up or relationship: It depends on the person, because there are guys who are just for hooking up, but I want a relationship, so, relationship it is.

[73] troublermaker or hesitant:  I don’t know, too hesitant is boring, too troublesome would be annoying. Something in the middle I guess.

HAVE YOU EVER…

[74] kissed a stranger?: Yes.

[75] drank hard liquor: Yes, sometimes fun, sometimes it isn’t lol

[76] lost glasses/contac lenses: Yes.

[77] turned someone down: Yes.

[78] sex on the first date?:  Yes lmao, for the fun!

[79] broken someone’s heart: Yes.

[80] had your heart broken?: Yes, it hurts a lot but then you feel like you are another person which is a great feeling by the way.

[81] been arrested?: No.

[82] cried when someone died?:Yes, it hurts to say goodbye.

[83] fallen for a friend: Nah, friends are just friends.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN…

[84] yourself: Yes! At least is what I mean.

[85] miracles?: Yes

[86] love at first sight?: Not love love, but like, the feel that you Have to get to know that person.

[87] santa clouse?: I wish.

[88] kiss on the first date?: If we both are into it and I think it’d be good then yeah sure.

[89] angels?: Yes.

OTHER…

[90] current best friend’s name: Em 💞

[91] eye color: Dark brown

[92] favorite movie: I have a lot of favorite movies, how can you do this?? But two of my all time favorites are Gone Girl and Memoirs of a Geisha.

We tag everyone who wants to to do this!!! Love you all!!!

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