#Don’t wanna injure anyone (is it actual homicidal ideation or just harm OCD: a saga)

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I love how quickly I can go from ”Oh god I said ’no’ to you for no good reason; I’m so selfish! I’m the real abuser.” to ”I want to rip you apart with my bare hands.” Like…. what?

Either nothing at all or all at once huh

#religious trauma #writing about my experiences… unhinges me in ways I cannot sufficiently describe #I think it would be best if I not give myself that catharsis until I am absolutely ready to leave #Don’t wanna injure anyone (is it actual homicidal ideation or just harm OCD: a saga) #Oh if only the JWs had a two minutes hate where I could scream and throw things without being scrutinized #Would love it if someone tried to jump me today so I could Beat Them Up (legally) #Then again there would be a court case and an investigation and I don’t have time for that #I need to get out of this fucking cult #exjw #pimo #Tarrie is scrawny and full of rage