#I can’t imagine he knew about Miklan until close to Miklan being disowned

[callmewishful]

Woke up thinking about dilfs today. Here’s the results of the days work:

It’s no secret that Lambert’s political ideas were…ambitious. And that’s not a bad thing - I think he really wanted to better Faerghus and that his policies were truly for the good of his people.

However, it is also no secret that the western lords were…hesitant. And it’s also no secret that Rodrigue knew this and worried about it more than Lambert did.

So how much time do y’all think Rodrigue spent chasing after Lambert trying to rein him in?

And thus, how much time do you think Matthias spent holding down eastern Faerghus while Lambert charged towards a new future and Rodrigue tried to temper him? How much time did he spend helping in territories so Rodrigue could spend time in Fhirdiad trying to tell Lambert to ease into things instead of charging into them head first? (And this is absolutely no hate to Papa Roddy - I love him and he’s such a good guy and believe me when I say he was doing the Goddess’s work trying to keep Lambert from charging off a cliff; he had decisions to make for the good of Faerghus too and this was one of them)

Rodrigue and Matthias play those roles in Houses though; Rodrigue goes in search of Dimitri while Matthias holds down the fort. To me it doesn’t seem far off that the same thing was true earlier in life.

In addition to that, we know there were two plagues in Faerghus - one Matthias sent his wife up north for and one that killed Dimitri’s mother. We know they had the large Sreng campaign where Rodrigue saved Lambert, that Matthias had Leif for a while, that Duscur occurred, and that Faerghus was utterly destroyed afterwards….

We know Matthias is a margrave before anything else, for better or worse depending on perspective (mostly worse than better). But how many times do you think duty took Matthias away from the boys? How many times did he look up and yet another day was long gone? How many times did he sacrifice today in hopes for a better tomorrow?

I’ve never said Matthias is winning any awards for his parenting, but I often wonder how things like this played a part in it.

#He just whirls around in my brain guys #He’s just such a sad little beast #his line to sylvain about him being a terrible father makes me sad #I think he realized too late how much he truly missed out on #but the fact that he’s apologizing and admitting his mistakes to sylvain shows me that he cares for Syl and has regrets about Sylvain’s #and Miklan’s childhoods #I can’t imagine he knew about Miklan until close to Miklan being disowned #even if he only loved Sylvain for his crest #which I don’t think is true but #wouldn’t it make sense that Matt wants to protect his only crest-bearing son? #so the Miklan stuff wouldn’t fly? #I don’t get super unhinged/evil vibes for Matt during Hopes so I can’t imagine he wants to torture Syl #I mean dude is a sad dude but again #life drop kicked him #I just think the apology and the paralogue with Sreng where Roddy suggests Matt apologizes shows #that Matt doesn’t always realize how things come across until you point it out or he sits and really thinks on it #but he can and will admit he’s wrong when he sees it #anyway tis my daily Matthias thoughts hope you enjoyed #matthias my dude #matthias raoul gautier