#which I don’t think is true but

[callmewishful]

Woke up thinking about dilfs today. Here’s the results of the days work:

It’s no secret that Lambert’s political ideas were…ambitious. And that’s not a bad thing - I think he really wanted to better Faerghus and that his policies were truly for the good of his people.

However, it is also no secret that the western lords were…hesitant. And it’s also no secret that Rodrigue knew this and worried about it more than Lambert did.

So how much time do y’all think Rodrigue spent chasing after Lambert trying to rein him in?

And thus, how much time do you think Matthias spent holding down eastern Faerghus while Lambert charged towards a new future and Rodrigue tried to temper him? How much time did he spend helping in territories so Rodrigue could spend time in Fhirdiad trying to tell Lambert to ease into things instead of charging into them head first? (And this is absolutely no hate to Papa Roddy - I love him and he’s such a good guy and believe me when I say he was doing the Goddess’s work trying to keep Lambert from charging off a cliff; he had decisions to make for the good of Faerghus too and this was one of them)

Rodrigue and Matthias play those roles in Houses though; Rodrigue goes in search of Dimitri while Matthias holds down the fort. To me it doesn’t seem far off that the same thing was true earlier in life.

In addition to that, we know there were two plagues in Faerghus - one Matthias sent his wife up north for and one that killed Dimitri’s mother. We know they had the large Sreng campaign where Rodrigue saved Lambert, that Matthias had Leif for a while, that Duscur occurred, and that Faerghus was utterly destroyed afterwards….

We know Matthias is a margrave before anything else, for better or worse depending on perspective (mostly worse than better). But how many times do you think duty took Matthias away from the boys? How many times did he look up and yet another day was long gone? How many times did he sacrifice today in hopes for a better tomorrow?

I’ve never said Matthias is winning any awards for his parenting, but I often wonder how things like this played a part in it.

#He just whirls around in my brain guys #He’s just such a sad little beast #his line to sylvain about him being a terrible father makes me sad #I think he realized too late how much he truly missed out on #but the fact that he’s apologizing and admitting his mistakes to sylvain shows me that he cares for Syl and has regrets about Sylvain’s #and Miklan’s childhoods #I can’t imagine he knew about Miklan until close to Miklan being disowned #even if he only loved Sylvain for his crest #which I don’t think is true but #wouldn’t it make sense that Matt wants to protect his only crest-bearing son? #so the Miklan stuff wouldn’t fly? #I don’t get super unhinged/evil vibes for Matt during Hopes so I can’t imagine he wants to torture Syl #I mean dude is a sad dude but again #life drop kicked him #I just think the apology and the paralogue with Sreng where Roddy suggests Matt apologizes shows #that Matt doesn’t always realize how things come across until you point it out or he sits and really thinks on it #but he can and will admit he’s wrong when he sees it #anyway tis my daily Matthias thoughts hope you enjoyed #matthias my dude #matthias raoul gautier

[laniidae-passerine]

if we were to look at it through a racial lens, I do find it very interesting that Jupe’s wife is white. that the audience at Star Lasso are majorly white. that he’s basically robbing the Haywoods, a black family, of their horses to feed them to an alien creature for white people’s entertainment. that he was the token asian adoptee in sitcom as a child. the model minority. fitting himself back into a system that used and failed him as a child, so he can find some semblance of respect and power as an adult man, only to still be swallowed up whole.

#the starlight group were white yeah? I only saw it in cinemas a day ago so still fuzzy but I don’t recall many other poc #still. thinking about it. special vs lucky #but what’s the difference between being named an animal and being treated like an animal. isn’t it the same thing? it just looks different #it just sounds different. being special. getting lucky. is there a true division or does it just have the same result sometimes? #I’m not saying that like. Jordan Peele thinks interracial marriage is a sign of hating yourself that’s stupid #but when Jupe specifically gets married to a white lady and lives in the neo-west #which is heavily associated (fairly or not) with white people and white suburbia #I think it does say something about him. he still needs them to like him. it’s like a sickness #nope #nope 2022 #nope movie #nope film #ricky park #ricky jupe park #jupe park

[bleue-flora]

What's often interesting to me, is Dream spells it out in the finale and people often still don't get it, so I thought it'd be interesting to see what he was actually referencing here. To see where it all started.

[24:27] Tommy: “That first war, me and Tubbo versus you–how it should have ended–why’d you take it?” Dream: “Tommy, you ambushed me and killed me. You stole all my shit! You tried ambushing me in a little cave–you don’t remember that? I feel like you just–your memory is just–gone.”

So here is the ambush Dream is talking about, where Sapnap and Tommy basically decide to just kill Dream and then kept all of his shit. [Death 1]

He gets killed again when he tries to take back his stuff. [Death 2]

Tommy kills him for fun right after he respawns with nothing. [Death 3]

Then after Dream gets his stuff back (via our boy Punz) and he takes the discs to get Tommy to stop, he gives Tommy back his items. But unsatisfied, Tommy goes after Dream, gets one of his discs back and hides it in the little cave. Dream tries to find it, while Sapnap and Tommy try to stop him. They are unsuccessful until, Tubbo brings them axes and they sneak up and corner Dream in the little cave, ambushing and killing him. Once again, taking all of his shit, (including, yes, the other disc.) [Death 4]

[27:58] Tommy: “Think about that, we could’ve been friends but no because you have to figure out the reason you have to get–”  Dream: “Yeah we could’ve but you–you ruined the chance of that long ago. It was you.” Tommy: “I ruined it?” Dream: “You ruined it!”

And I don’t think it’s unfair for Dream to say that in the finale, because for Dream it’s this stream early on, these moments that started it all. It’s these instances of of Dream getting murdered and robbed and made fun of over and over. Him, trying to not just make peace for everyone, but also reclaim respect and peace for himself. It’s Tommy chasing after Dream when he has nothing to kill him and rub it in his face. It’s Dream, even after all of that, giving back their items. It’s these instances of violence taken too far to the point they clearly pissed Dream off and didn’t care or follow his very simple request of just giving an apology and his belongings back that shape my distaste for Tommy and sympathy for Dream. It’s these moments that I feel like are gone from Tommy’s and our memory that highlight a different story.

[28:34] Dream: “Yeah, we could have been friends if you weren’t a little shit.”

#c!dream #dsmp #don’t worry I’m also covering what Tommy next to be fair… #dreblr #dream smp #dsmp finale #dsmp analysis #dsmp lore #dishing up lore #lore thoughts #c!tommy #interestingly enough it is actually tubbo who kills him here in the cave which is an interesting parallel to tubbo killing him in the final #c!tommyinnit #dsmpblr #c!discduo #discduo #c!dream and c!tommy #I sometimes like think that maybe these three or at least on of these deaths was canonical for Dream since it is plot relavent #and how interesting that would be to shape the story because then the gravity of it becomes that much more real #this of course only works if Dream and punz could later revive people back to fill lives which unclear if that’s true or not… #I did consider this more before I saw a post highlighting that punz and dreams tests on themselves happened after the staged finale

[brookheimer]

none of y’all ever talked enough about how fucking insane the choice of famous blue raincoat by leonard cohen was for connor’s karaoke song

#like…. #it fits in that moment bc its ab a ‘love triangle’ and losing the woman you love and connor’s depressed ab willa #but the song itself is constantly invoking cain & abel #and is so fucking crazy considering the last episode…… #‘what can i tell you my brother my killer / what can i possibly say / i guess that i miss you i guess i forgive you / i’m glad that you #stood in my way’ #banging my head against the wall thinking about trio reunion down the line and this symbolically being kendall addressing roman (my brother) #& shiv (my killer) #it’s a hopeful yet depressing interp lol. like the song is emotionally devastating but that specific verse is just so…. man #‘i’m glad that you stood in my way’…. #i don’t think kendall would ever say that or even acknowledge it to himself but. on some level. it isn’t wrong #also meaningful from a rome perspective too — ken telling rome that it was never gonna bd him that he doesn’t even want it #which is true . but roman can’t admit that #god. why has no one fuckinh talked about how insaaaane it was to have connor sing this in ep2!!!!!!! #succession #leonard cohen #100

[ghostradiodylan]

Current mood: The Quarry cast members chaotically debating the proper formatting and pronunciation of Dylan and Ryan’s ‘ship name after the chat asked them to please be quiet for this scene.

#the quarry #dylan lenivy #miles robbins #ryan erzahler #justice smith #zach tinker #siobhan williams #rylan #radioheads #dylan x ryan #‘dy-lan’ is just Dylan pronounced different! #did Siobhan say she’s ‘not into that’ lmfao how dare?? #she may actually be implying that Justice isn’t #which I don’t think is true #Justice ships Ryan with everyone lol #Zach is a major Rylan shipper though

[girlgerard]

mommm white people on tumblr are misconstruing my posts again despite the post being entirely about how important wording is + how i don’t feel comfortable posting large statements when i haven’t fully processed them yet.

#if you want to put me on a blocklist for loving netanyahu you can! i don’t! and no matter how many times i get told i do #i still don’t! #i literally said i hope his balls get cut off IN THAT POST #i don’t know how that read as unclear. #perhaps there are no hidden genocidal messages behind the wording of my tumblr posts - who knows! #when i said i cared about every single civilian living in that land i meant it. if you decide that i actually don’t that’s not my problem #if you somehow took my words and decided that what i really meant is that i’m a government bootlicker who loves murder #you can do that all you want. it won’t make it true and it won’t help save any lives #i was in ramallah and jerusalem six months ago. have you gone? #if the answer is no maybe think about that for a second #moreover if you’re viewing this from a purely racial or religious framework you have no idea how to navigate this subject #i don’t view israel and palestine through which government i want to back. why the fuck would i do that #palestinians and jews and everyone else in that land is who i care about. i care about gazans #if that’s not enough of ‘a side’ for you i don’t really think there’s much of a conversation to be had. #do you think i wake up every day NOT thinking about gaza? do you think i wouldn’t feel nauseous every second of every day because of gaza? #do you think that within everything i’m saying that the most logical conclusion would be to post all of my thoughts on tumblr? #because if you think any of that we’re not going to have a productive conversation. i don’t take kindly to being told my own emotions

[astrobei]

oh boy do i have some news for you

#quotes that make me want to slowly peel the skin off my body like a pomegranate #everyone talks abt mike’s need to be needed n wanted n loved #which is so true so valid so real #but like #can we circle back to will for a second . #bc it’s not just that he wants mike and can’t have him it’s like #for him this kind of love isn’t even in the picture #when he says ‘i’m not gonna fall in love’ knowing he already is #what he means is that love won’t ever be reciprocated #he can’t have what nancy and jonathan have #the kind of love he says is so gross !! #he thinks no one wants to hold his wrists and kiss his palms and smile at him !! #oh #head in hands my sweet baby boy #pls don’t tag this or make additions w ‘this but mike actually’ YES I KNOW MIKE ACTUALLT #ILL MAKE A BILLION MORE POSTS ABT MIKE #I PROMISE #BUT RN WE R TALKING ABT WILL ok that’s all #like #for him it’s mike or no one #and knowing he’ll never be able to have an easy teen romance like mike n el #or lucas and max #or jonathan and nancy or even dustin and suzie #:( #‘im not gonna fall in love’ meaning #‘i am in love but no one will fall in love with me’ #will byers #mike wheeler #byler #/astro posts

[ct-multifandom]

I don’t usually make posts like this, but I’ve been seeing a lot of anti-intellectual junk lately, and I really think we need to put the word “pretentious” up on a shelf until people learn what it actually means.

It doesn’t describe someone who likes artsy-fartsy deep meaning media. People who are pretentious are fake. They’re posers trying to be sophisticated and unique, not like other girls. They pretend to only like stuff they think will make them sound cool when they talk about it. They want to act like they know something you don’t, and they want attention for it.

By definition, if you genuinely enjoy something, you can’t be pretentious. If it resonates with you, and you analyze it, and you don’t care what people think, that’s the polar opposite, actually. If you love obscure experimental prog music, if you watch underground high concept indie films through English teacher eyes, if you spend hours in a modern art museum reading each piece as a vessel for storytelling, if your backpack’s full of poetry books that inspire you, if you play underrated games that were someone’s passion project, if you have an interest in studying the classics or the masters, you are not pretentious.

Of course, some people just don’t like some stuff, and that’s fine, but that’s not what this is about. Don’t let anti-intellectuals shame you for enjoying things just because your interests are inaccessible to them, because they refuse to be brave and put effort into critical thinking. You’re not stuck up for refusing to overlook the craft of artists.

#anti intellectualism #media #movies #books #music #critical thinking #my friend who primarily listens to one very popular band once said that people who listen to obscure music are annoying and pretentious #which rubbed me the wrong way because 1 she knows that I listen to obscure music and 2 it’s such a cowardly consumerist take. anyone can #make music and hey a lot of the people who do make GOOD music. and this goes for all *obscure* media #this post was mostly inspired by people talking about Barbie and those anti pick me girls like the pick nobody girls who insist thinking is #for boys and having fun with an empty brain is for girls. Greta gerwig is an artist. I haven’t seen the movie yet but I know it has a deeper #message than haha cute pink! I’ve seen the summaries about the true meaning. the pinkness and popularity doesn’t negate the narritive. #though in the notes I saw a lot of tumblristas comunistas shitting on the film for being one big ad that people *fell for* which tbh is #tbh almost as anti-intellectual. don’t get me wrong they milked this film to sell hella shit but I don’t believe kids who play with dolls #are the target audience as these people claim. Barbie is a culturally iconic symbol almost archetypical of societal expectations for women #you say barbie people think unblinking perfect plastic pink girly. reminds me of the poem The Last Mojave Indian Barbie. yeah yeah you all #hate brands but this one carries undeniable significance and makes for a powerful literary device. it’s been used many times before #sorry for writing a tag essay about a film I haven’t even seen but I’m tired of internet people focusing so much on proving others wrong #that they end up oversimplifying everything just as much as the other person. god I saw people doing this to Nimona saying transphobes were #looking too deep into her character and they’re reactionary clowns for making that jump. like for once the transphobes are right. she is #trans. it’s a queer story. and irl the first people who notice queerness are the bigots who can tell you’re different. sick owns telling #them the story’s not that deep is harmful and it’s like they’re ignoring the real message on purpose. okay enough rambling hehe! thanks #barbie #nimona

[ladysansalannister]

The people who respond to Coryo Snow stans with “why would you stan Coryo when Sejanus is right there!!” baffle me, because 1. You can stan both and 2. They’re two completely different characters without much in common. People stan Coryo and Sejanus for very different reasons. I don’t stan Coryo because I “think he’s a good person”/“he can be redeemed.” I stan him because he isn’t a good person. I stan him because he can’t be redeemed. Or maybe he could have, but he rejects it. He appeals to me as a character in completely different and unrelated ways than Sejanus appeals to me. They’re not interchangeable.

#coriolanus snow #coryo snow #snowbaird #president snow #the ballad of songbirds and snakes #the hunger games #tbosas #thg #books #not putting this in the sejanus tag because even though i love him i have manners #also i don’t want to be attacked/for people to think i don’t like him which isn’t true at all

[supranatra]

Making sparda an overbearing, dominating figure with a soft spot for family and general neutrality on humans is good but i think super happy funtime guy sparda who is incredibly enamored with his family and outwardly super duper nice (almost appearing and sometimes is naive or gullible) to humans but when alone or pushed in just the right way he morphs into that nearly cruel and dark figure he was considered long ago is better. :)

#i love nice guys with darksides ig #that idea that time love space and all forms of care and feeding can only abate the true nature of an animal #that in the end he can mask it all he wants with human emotions like love and happiness but that he is still a demon and that #there are still many things he cannot let go of or change no matter how much time passes #i like to think it caused him great pain. i like to think that embracing humanity caused him so much internal grief and struggle #this is edging on implying he wished he were a human instead but I don’t think thats true. i think it came up when hu #-man issues arose like eva being pregnant or even before that bc it would have made things easier. not better per se but def easier #but he is also proud of the being that he is as well which again comes back to that internal struggle he must have experienced #idk lol #dmc0 #dmc #devil may cry #stratatata #using this as a gen tag when i say smth #ignore this im just talking out my ass fr

[ocdhuacheng]

I love kabru like he’s established as this manipulative and shady person with ulterior motives who could be a major threat to laios’s party, but he also is one of the most empathetic and kind characters in the series and does his best to try and help everyone bc he is one of the people who understands the situation the best. and I think ppl are too focused on the first part they forget the second part. (Anime onlies are ok bc you guys haven’t gotten his character development yet ^^)

Also his party getting wiped out constantly in the beginning was funny as fuck

#it’s such a red herring #like yeah he’s manipulative and does questionable things (killing those corpse revivers which is understandable imo but he did it in a local #*location where they’re basically guaranteed to be gone for good) #but he also just wants the best for everyone #also I’m not even gonna get into his trauma both from utaya and growing up surrounded by elves (like milsiril was well meaning but she also. #just doesn’t understand him) #bc that’s a separate post #same with why I think his dynamic with Mithrun is so cool bc it’s the only time he doesn’t feel the need to impress anyone so we get more of #his like. /true/ self. if I’m wording that correctly #or maybe I should say first time #or. anyone that wasn’t his mom(s) #also I love his hyperawareness because it’s both a flaw and a strength for him #anyway tldr. I just think he’s neat :) #dungeon meshi #dungeon meshi spoilers #<- I don’t usually tag but I feel like I should the way this post is worded #.txt

[grumpyoldsnake]

One of these days. One of these days, I will figure out what the hell makes the tipping point beyond which either a) there’s socialization that I feel insulated from and kind of numb about and too tired to pursue, or b) socialization where the very notion of so much as expressing one (1) internal thought or emotion suffuses my whole body with adrenaline and blaring Nope instincts.

#don’t get me wrong I think I *do* feel fairly Normal about. idk. a good portion of my social interactions #enough that I can go about my daily life just fine #but the numb times and the freeze-or-flight times are always Mightily inconveniently timed #with regards to actually forming new friendships #and there’s a certain threshold of Acknowledging that I Personally Exist where it *all* becomes freeze-or-flight fffff #(it goes like this: I start to think ‘it’d be kind of neat if—‘) #(and then I consider the actual logistics of getting TO the If. and one way or another — fear or tiredness — it becomes ‘ah. right. nvm.’) #(and then if it’s a bad day I have the further thought that the If probably wouldn’t be fulfilling for other involved parties anyway) #(which is. self defeating in the extreme and a distortion and I know it. >_>) #(but it’s ALSO objectively true on some specific axis and like. mm. some nights finding that balance is hard I guess) #(on the one hand not putting myself down but on the other hand being realistic about what I need vs. what other people need) #(and the fact that there are just some types of socialization that just aren’t a good fit for me) #(and that I can’t be for or have with other folk without burning out spectacularly) #life flails #mental health flails #my stuff #complaining

[myonmukyuu]

@doridoripawaa YES YES YESSSS FEAR!! You get it 😭😭😭😭 You pass the Uehara Ayumu exam!!!

My take with the season 1 conflict is that painting Ayumu’s jealousy purely as a romantic thing does a big disservice to her character. For me the key thing about it is that she’s so so afraid. She’s so anxious and it’s hit a critical point. She clings to Yu’s side because Yu doesn’t change. Yu is always there for her! But when this whole idol thing starts Yu starts changing - she goes from floating about in life to having a dream and this once steady anchor starts floating around and god damn Ayumu is terrified! I could talk on and on about this but all the visual symbolism in Dream With You really screams that Ayumu wants time to stop and for now to be forever but it’s 1am !!!

But yes you’re right about everything … Setsuna and Ayumu are actually alike in that way….. 🥹🥹🥹

I’m going to think about them sharing an umbrella for the rest of my life….

#I’d say ayumu is defo more assertive though LOL #like you have to chase Setsuna for her to resolve a conflict #ayumu chases YOU! #🥵 #but man yeah I really love how ayumu and Setsuna start to become like each other #I forgot which nijiyon it was but the one where Setsuna and Kasumi are watching Ayumu perform #and Kasumi comments that Ayumu is starting to remind her of Setsuna #and Setsuna’s like ‘if that’s true then that means ayumu has found her own path ‘ #<- I FELT THAT MANNNNNNNNNN #doridoripawaa #don’t think u can hide in the tags!!!

[starlooove]

Ppl will say fanon v canon doesn’t matter and it’s all jokes and I’m sooooo close to going sure sometimes and then I remember y’all removed a major role of one of the if not THEE most prominent black character in Bruce’s story who was created a whole decade before tim and gave it to tim based off a run where he literally handed the role back! Like IN THE COMIC Tim was CEO in name only and handed it back to Lucius relieved when he didn’t need to front anymore like.

#also if I said y’all took a lot of what tam does and her character traits and handed them off to tim…. #like from that run #it’s crazy bc I always say that’s like the only comic tim stans read #but if that’s true the racism isn’t even covert anymore el oh el #tim Drake #it’s actually about him this time #I’m not gonna clog Lucius or tam tags any further tho #oh and on the tam note #her quick thing and sheer insanity was seen as naivety from tim even tho it saved his ass quite a few times #mainly that Vicki vale shit #which is hung up on LUCIUS’ wall #bc it’s HIS office #bc HE is the CEO. #I think it’s so funny how Bruce quest was like unreliable narrator knows their unreliable and thinks that knowledge means that everything t #they say is true bc they acknowledge that maybe they’re not thinking healthily #which is so fucking fun #but y’all go ‘yesss this is Tim!’ #like no! it’s not! and tim knows that! and he’s too high strung to be pissed or scared about it! #AND THAT IS WHAT SHOULDVE HAPPENED NEXT #IK cómics don’t like to acknowledge that kinda trauma and shit #but something going deep into Tim’s mental state at the time and how he was impacted in daily and personal life #(bc instead of black characters being written out and ignored I’m choosing to believe tam distanced herself bc he was such a Dick) #Like that would’ve been craaaazy #like even tims lack luster reaction at seeing Kon in Paris after he was DEAD #And then later having the emotional reaction like he really kept that shit on the backburner #but noooo he’s so badass and a killer 🥺 #anyways justice for the fox family #at least for Lucius like he and cyborg are in the same boat for me #where they’ve been around for so long and have been so important (cyborg on a waaaay wider scale) #that the fact that they don’t get their flowers in favor of making shit up for tim is SICK

[itspileofgoodthings]

my life is a very slow process of everyone around me telling me not to be anxious and me fighting them all tooth and nail while inching towards more stable mental health.

#I know it’s not true but sometimes I feel like if I didn’t have anxiety I would not suffer at all #which. again. is false #but there’s a lot of things I don’t want in this life and a lot of things I am not scared of and a lot of things I just accept #and like. It’s FINE #but all my suffering from anxiety stays in one fixed flame of sheer agony #and it’s hard because I don’t shake like a chihuahua in the corner of my bedroom #unable to move or function #I’m always doing things and functioning and joking at parties and (generally) saying the right thing #but it’s all located in one corner in the middle of my mind attacking my ability to make judgments and live with my decisions peacefully #like an unseen wound #and the distance i feel it puts between me and other people #is one of the most painful things #just several sheets of frosted glass between me and them #and sometimes the worst it gets is when I can bear it without breaking down and so I just do and I just keep functioning #and the cold just creeps in and everything goes kind of numb! #tbh now that I think about it this might be why I often think of myself as a person with no desires or ambitions or dreams #or impetus or forward motion or anything #because I DO want things and have opinions and the exist in flashes. But also they’re buried deep under several layers of protective apathy #so they’re not stable. I drop them many times. forget them ignore them imagine that they aren’t there. I’m sorry I’m rambling I’m FINE #actually when I talk about it that’s how you know I’m doing okay with it #when I can’t talk about it and am half-heartedly going through the motions #that’s the problem #anyway whew. thanks for listening sorry for all the self-reflection etc. etc. etc.

[mintmentos]

I knew legit nothing about paper girls going into it but I love it so much?? I’m having a great time

#I love Mac like sweet babe finally finding a healthy family that she loves and having to leave so they don’t get killed :/ #I love tiff the way she’s no nonsense and so smart but so fragile too #I love kj so much just everything about this child I love she’s so good #and Erin seeing how she ends up and trying to navigate how her expectations don’t materialise and respect her older self for the decisions #she made I’m ahhhhhhh #and the fact that the whole time it’s blatantly obvious they’re 12???? not being forced to grow up no hyper sexualisation no focus on #relationships it gets the balance so right and I love it for that #(I’m only half way through but this is true so far and even if developments happen I don’t think it’ll change the overall vibe of the show #which is what I’m loving) #paper girls #kiera talks tv