#I fully intend to take therapy forever when I'm a vet. Because I've already had periods of bad mental health.

[pigaletta]

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How do I tell my daughter that every job has things that make you want to quit every day?

How do I tell my daughter that life does get better? That she won't always be this lonely and sad and that there are things worth living for.

How do I tell her all this while I'm still struggling to cope with the thought of going into the world and working? While I'm still struggling to keep myself going every day?

How do I tell her that there's no shame in taking therapy for years, to keep helping her like a warm blanket or vitamin supplements, rather than as a medicine to an acute disease?

How do I tell her that she's worth investing time and money into therapy?

How do I tell her that we're all desperately trying to find reasons to keep going?

I'm trying to find glimpses of heaven in every day. I'm trying to find something that will sustain me when the loneliness hits me and I'm far from home.

I'm just really trying to push against this bit by bit. Trying to find the answers to a problem that might be lifelong. To the loneliness, to the finiteness of life, to wishing things would just be better and less painful.

How do I find the solution to this? How do I tell her it gets better when it hasn't gotten better for me?

How do I tell her that happiness is a daily struggle and that we're all here in this fighting our own battles?

How do I tell her that therapy will help with her night terrors, and make her believe it's okay to keep taking therapy?

How do I

How do I tell my daughter to keep going?

#vent #rant #loneliness #mental illness tw #tw mental illness #It's 01:00AM and she called me and there was nothing I could do. #I know we're not gods. We can't heal every animal. We can't make all our colleagues competent. I know it's hard to live with. #But you are doing great things on your own. You are saving lives and preventing and reducing suffering. #You are following the veterinarian's oath to the letter. You are. But vet med is mentally and emotionally taxing. We are all suicidal. #I fully intend to take therapy forever when I'm a vet. Because I've already had periods of bad mental health. #And I can't expect myself to always be fine. I know I'm going to need a shit ton of support to keep working. This is veterinary medicine. #We are all mentally ill. We see death and suffering firsthand. We aren't gods and we guilt ourselves over it every day. #This is what it is to be a doctor. This is what we deal with. It's worth taking therapy. Please for the love of god get therapy again.