I poked through the KimiKura Verse Playlist and compiled some songs from the Yakuza!Kadokura AU.
BAD CHILD - BAD CHILD
“That smile, girl
Was for you
It's been a while, girl
Without you
Free trial, girl
For you
I don't want to spend this night alone”
EAT SPIT! - Slush Puppy, Royal and the Serpents
“Misfit, misfit in trouble
Queen shit, queen shit level
Misfit, misfit in trouble
Misfit, get the fuck on my level
Bad bitch, queen shit, icon”
Complex - Xana
“I put on a pretty show, a demon taught me what I know
And I could see it in her eyes, I got this angel hypnotized
Said she loves the thing I do with my tongue while I'm inside
You got me with my worst intentions”
Good Kid - Former Vandal
“Baby, you could fuck up my whole life
How'd you know that's just what I'd like?
You wrap my arms around your throat and say
Tell me that you love me like it matters either way"
regrets - Stevie Howie
“Call me an addict
Baby can I have it?
Fuck being right
God I want it so badly
I can't deny you
You know you're my supplier
Fuck my pride
Already know I'm a buyer
I'd change my mind for you, yeah
I'd follow what you do, yeah”
Sex and Candy - Marcy Playground
“I smell sex and candy here, mmm
Who's that lounging in my chair? Mmm
Who's that casting devious stares in my direction?
Momma this surely is a dream, yeah”
HOUNDIN PT II - Layton, AViVA
“Ooh, you so obsessive, send another desperate message
On your knees, I got you begging, I forgot, I meant to mention, yeah
You ain't nothing when you tryna be slick
You ain't nothing but my hounding-ass bitch, yeah yeah”
666 - KILLBOY
“You know from the jump
I'm crazy as fuck
1 a.m. you know I'm kinda drunk
I just want yo love
Cut you up and put you in the trunk
If you fucking up
Nah, you know that shit aint really nothin'
I just want your love”
She Thinks of Me - Landon Tewers
“She loves the bags under my eyes
Sitting in her thigh highs
Drinking like a fish because she's realized
I'm just fucking with an imitation maybe I should move on from the parasite
Heard you're speaking like we made a truce
Haven't stole your woman yet so show some gratitude
I found a real one
My life's a wicked view
Be thanking me when she's fucking you”
Daddy AF - Slayyyter
“I been fuckin' models
I been poppin' bottles all night
Playboy in the grotto (Playboy in the grotto!)
Put it on your face boy
Alright (Alright, alright)
Daddy as fuck”
Bloodfeather - Highly Suspect
“Your eyes, they could cut through diamonds and steel
For real, they're sharper than the blade in your hand
They tell me you're strong, but they don't tell me what you feel
I feel there's something that you want me to hear
It's coming in loud and clear
You know what you want, what you want, what you want
In the name of love, I'll follow you
You fit me like a glove when I'm inside of you
And if my body's dead and cold, I'd die for you
In the name of love, I'll kill for”
Heavy Metal Lover - Lady Gaga
“I want your whiskey mouth all over my blond south
Red wine, cheap perfume and a filthy pout
Tonight bring all your friends, because a group does it better
Why river with a pair?
Let's have a full house of leather”
Make It Naked - DYLYN
“Make it naked
This is how I want it
Bleeding, screaming
I want it raw and honest
Under the skin is the truth
I'll show you me, show me you”
Popsicle - bludnymph
“Got a sugar addiction, I make bad decisions
I wish I would listen but I just wanna stay
Now my hunger has risen, I can't help but give in
I pray I'm forgiven, I cannot get away
Yeah, I got a sweet tooth
I want another taste of you
Yeah, I gotta stay cool
Nobody does it like you do”
Strut - Emeline
“They say I'm tragically obsessed
Hot mess, God forbid, I'm getting what I like
Every night, make 'em livid
All these saints are watching me
My sex life like TMZ
You're welcome, bitch, the show is free”
Fluorescent - Gwen Stefani
“Dressing up in your love is a dangerous thing
My sexy super lover's got a real bad sting
Oh baby, didn't want no trouble, this is more than I can afford
I can't help myself, keep coming back for more”
Little Girl Gone - CHINCHILLA
“Little girl gone, got a gun from a gangster
Run little girl, run little girl, faster
Little girl gone, got a gun from a gangster
Honey, I've changed so much since I last saw ya”
Lord of the Thighs - Aerosmith
“You must have come here to find it
You've got the look in your eyes
Although you really don't mind it
I am the lord of your thighs”
Part Goddess Part Gangster - Madalen Duke
“See that girl
Halo on her head
Eyes that burn with a devilish stare
Pocketknife hidden in her smile
Watch her move
Like a beast in the wild
She flies with angels
She runs with wolves
Part goddess, part gangster”
Crimewave - Blue Stahli
“I wanna go on a crimewave
I wanna ride with you
And when I dance on their grave
I wanna dance with you”
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how does one deal with thoughts about death? it's not just about my own death but the others around me. i feel very upset right now because my mom, her husband and my siblings are going to the beach and i can't stop thinking that something may happen to them whether on the road or once they're at the beach. i want to cry but then i'll have to explain my big sister why i'm crying at 6 AM.
it's something i think about almost daily, and i've gone through the same when i was 14. i remember i would bawl my eyes out every time my mom and dad went out. i would take the bible, read any passage and pray to god they arrived home safely. i'd even beg them not to step out of the house and they'd just laugh since they couldn't understand why i was behaving like that. this was triggered after a classmate's mom and a cousin who was my age died, both of cancer.
and i have to hear my big sister say after any inconvenience: "ugh, i'm going to die soon. at least i'll be fine since i'm not leaving kids or anyone else behind" shut up shut up, i don't wanna hear you say stuff like that. you have no idea how much it'll hurt not having you here.
finding out so suddenly that my mom, dad or any of my siblings is dead is one of my biggest fears. hell, of course it happens suddenly, it's not like death knocks at your door or gives you a heads-up, but i do wish it were possible so i could be prepared (whatever that means). when my grandpa died last year, i was really sad but at the same time i felt relieved because somehow i knew his time on earth was up, so it didn't come as a shock. besides, he didn't die violently, he did so in a hospital bed.
but then i tell myself: "with your constant overthinking, you're quietly wishing their deaths, attracting all those bad energies and once the inevitable happens, it's gonna be your fault for not putting a stop to these thoughts, you brought this on yourself." and i feel so much worse.
i'm obviously afraid of dying, i haven't made peace with the fact we all die but i can't help but think in how and when i'm going to die. am i gonna get killed by a man, while i'm being robbed, sexually assaulted, or because i was at the wrong place and hour? am i gonna be run over by a car? a heart attack while i'm working or with friends? and so on. how's my family going to react? how will they keep on without me?
i also tell myself to put a lid on this and make up my mind about death but i guess i'm too weak for that. i keep myself busy to stop thinking and thinking but these thoughts just come to me and i don't know what to do with them.
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