#I'll eventually make normal meta posts that don't feel like you've stepped on an anthill

[nyenyerle]

Ok sorry to send another ask but if you want to please tell me all about Morwen strangling Finrod and any other CoH thoughts

You might have noticed but I’ve been rather fixated on Húrin lately and your tags are so intriguing

-@outofangband

So I. So. (don't you ever apologise for sending asks aaah) This is VERY rambly because I'm exhausted, so I put numbers to indicate topics but Everything Is Connected :,,(

1. (Maedhros,) Húrin and prayers

Your "Maedhros prays in Angband" scenario is amazing and very important, because it's Maedhros and because it's Angband. But I don't have fully-fledged thoughts yet, just questions myself... (how does suffering alter time perception for elves? I have a suspicion that elves are seemingly closer to the valar in nature while humans are theoretically (= w/o many practical benefits) closer to Eru in nature. So I think that when an elf, and an amanya at that, prays to the valar, it's more of a conscious conversation? While the silence before Húrin says, "it comes not from the lore of the Eldar, but is put into my heart in this hour" might have been a contemplative prayer. (not an ask for help just the turning of attention))

2. Morwen Elf-critic

what you actually asked about: strangling Finrod. Last week I wanted it to be Elros, and yesterday I said Morwen in the tags, didn't I? It was because I had just realised in that moment that Morwen "fair but briefer and so fairer or maybe dearer" was the best goddamn elf critic out there. (Human perspective: elves live unfathomably long, so to say "forever." Elven perspective: humans escape time through the Gift, like ainur were never subject to it, so they actually might go int the "forever"!) We tend to think that elves are "spiritual." It's a similar optical illusion to when elves look at humans and see a Mystery on them (did Finrod discover the incarnation? Maybe. Am I also spraying him with water? Definitely.)

3. Other CoH thoughts (The Chaos)

Then these thoughts tragically collided with an Eärendil fic I'm """trying"""" to write (hence the tag about him and Túrin) and another amazing Eärendil-Elwing ask I'm yet to answer so all I wanted to do ever since was yell about the difference between elven and human notions of the eternal (and consequently the difference between the two species' attitudes towards beauty and suffering and permanence) and the absolute chaos that erupts when you add a maia (peredhel line through Melian) into the mix.

So far I can report: zero coherency. At one point I wandered whether Dior was a fourth silmaril (the light of the two species' nature mingling+secret component). It's incredible that everything wants synthesis in the silm so very much.

Anyway. I'm so sorry and grateful if you've actually made it through this unpleasant read. And also because there wasn't enough Húrin! Below are two memes to indicate what it's like in my brain right now. And to bully myself into writing about what's on them

#I'll eventually make normal meta posts that don't feel like you've stepped on an anthill #hasard CoH brainrot #earendil #maedhros #húrin #melian #morwen #this meme could have been an essay #this meme will be an essay!! positive thoughts positive thoughts #ask #outofangband #i so don't want to read this tomorrow and discover just how much i sound like a lunatic :D #a little bit of #havens of sirion family grief #mainly in meme format.