#I'm in so much pain on a daily basis and I keep getting increasingly anxious about the teeth breaking or getting infected or whatever

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I think we have a cavity forming on yet another tooth but unfortunately it's been nearly a year and even just thinking about dentist appointments is enough to make us dissociate heavily and start getting painfully tense so I do not fucking know what to do.

I want to get this stuff fixed but we may have to go private for it which would be expensive as hell if we can even make it through an appointment and I'm terrified that whatever treatment we get might just cause more issues because that's what's happened every time we've had dental treatment in the last 5 years

#personal #thoughts #🍬 post #vent post #we didn't go to a dentist for years and in that time we were fine until one tooth (that already had a filling in it) broke #and then they did some fillings and we started having tooth pain and some of the teeth that had fillings started breaking #and then when we got those fixed some of them got really painful even though they weren't painful while broken #and we've had dentists ignore us when we've said some teeth are painful but then do fillings in ones that felt fine #and those teeth are new excrutiatingly painful on a daily basis #so I'm stuck in a position where it feels like whatever I do it's going to lead to more long term pain in one way or another #either I leave it and the teeth keep rotting and breaking or I try to get them fixed and they still keep rotting and breaking anyway #but with the added pain of the nerve being irritated from the fillings? I guess? that seems to be what happens #but I'm terrified that if I don't get them fixed they'll get infected (if they aren't already) and I don't know what to do #I'm in so much pain on a daily basis and I keep getting increasingly anxious about the teeth breaking or getting infected or whatever #and I want to maybe try and desensitise myself to some dentist related triggers maybe #but that'll take a long time with how bad those triggers are at the moment and in the meantime our teeth are still fucked