#I've had genuine episodes of dysphoria and depersonalization maybe 3 times?

[cicadidae-tm9899]

God this feels bad

#I've had genuine episodes of dysphoria and depersonalization maybe 3 times? #lemme tell ya #it's not fun #in the middle of making this post i heard what sounded like 300 dogs dying at once outside my house #i keep nearly spiraling thinking about my future #i know I'm probably gonna have to cut off my parents #if they don't cut me off first #but i love my dad #i don't know what I'd do if i wasn't able to call him anytime i needed. #I'm scared man #and I'm so tired #sick of the fact that i wasn't born a boy #at least that way I'd just be gay #and not a degenerate freak of nature going against god's will or whatever #shit sucks dude #personal #i thought about trying to keep it a secret. #just shaving whenever i saw them and making excuses for any changes in my voice #dealing with mild chest dysphoria when i visit #i hate lying #I've gotten decently good at it but i don't like it #shit