#I've had thoughts about shows before! I'm capable of that! but not wjrn

[running-in-the-dark]

I want to be someone who has smart and interesting things to say about shows/movies that I like - like when I tried to convince my friends that they really need to watch Leverage. that would have been useful! instead I'm just like 'it's sooo good I like it so much I love all the characters they're all so awesome 🥰'

my thoughts are generally just like.

ooh he soo prettyyy. I want to braid his hair. hehe he punched someone. look at his lil face 🥰 baby boi. pretty smile his mouth is so nice I like his teeth. chest hair. hands! arms arms arms 🤤 his eyes are so pretty. oooh blood on his face, blood on his face! he's growling. annd his voice is all raspy again. I wonder [many many redacted thoughts]. ooh now he's in danger oh noo 😏

there's a bunch of 'she's so pretty' and 'I love her' somewhere in between all that too but mostly it's just. very, very stupid

#and I wonder why I don't remember the plot of probably half the leverage episodes #I'm rewatching it with my partner now and it was. definitely interesting. how I remembered pretty much everything from season 1. annd it #got so much worse after that #I wonder why that could be :') #I have said at least half of these things out loud just during the last episode I watched #I am so fucking stupid for this man #no thoughts just 😍 #my brain melts and gets replaced with just pictures of Eliot with hearts drawn all over them like I'm a creepy stalker but also 12 years old #and tbh probably half of it is actually just. oh I need him. I want him. I love him. #do you sometimes wonder why some people feel the need to share every goddamn thought they have no matter how dumb it is? #why? oh no reason. me? oh no I don't do that I'm so normal! #hey at least I didn't once mention how fighting him and fucking him would definitely not fix anything but tbh yeah no it totally would #it really would #annnd now I'm losing my mind again and I better shut up before it gets even worse #like fuck it's like I literally lose the ability to form a single coherent thought #I've had thoughts about shows before! I'm capable of that! but not wjrn #there's a man. #ugh. horrible. bad. so stupid #(but he's hot and I want him and) #(oh crap now he's really in danger oh no I don't like it oh don't hurt my baby 😭) #(oh thank god now he's hitting people again. phew.) #anyway shut up shut up shut uppp #personal