#Pay no attention to my bookmarks yes they’re public spn recommendations yes you are supposed to ignore them (read them read them pls)

[kindlythevoid]

Well, I’m usually super supportive of whatever fandom I’m in. Like I’ll go all in, little to no shame, if it’s my problem it’s yours now, too. But the moment I get back into Supernatural I just. Ultimate Cringe Moment. I sit there staring at the screen and feel tears streaming down my face. Why am I writing these silly little stories for these silly little guys? I wasn’t even invested in Supernatural ten years ago and suddenly I am transported to those vibes as soon as the first word is typed out by my silly little hands. How dare I write Supernatural fan fiction in the Year of Our Lord 2023? Sam? Dean? Cas? Why can’t I be obsessed with a respectable fandom like Merlin or Pacific Rim or even Violet Evergarden? Yet here I am, gripped by my 96th fic idea for these idiot brothers and their idiot angel and their idiot son that I Must write out Immediately. Disgusting. I finish a 60k crossover fic and Perish.

#I feel like it’s important to note that I love this show so so much #I love it like Star Wars fans love Star wars #What tumblr user was it who said: #You may not love Star Wars unless you hate it and you may not hate Star Wars unless you love it #Because that is my feelings towards supernatural #I am in many niche and cringe fandoms but nothing #Nothing #nothing is as cringe for me as supernatural is #No don’t look at my ocs (they aren't finished) #No don’t look at my crossover fics (posting them soon I promise) #Pay no attention to my bookmarks yes they’re public spn recommendations yes you are supposed to ignore them (read them read them pls) #I will defend these characters and I will reblog their fanart (not right now but there's a queue) #But the moment anyone looks upon it and realizes I am in fact a spn fan I die a little (i have a BOARD and i have a FOLDER and a PLAYLI-) #Yes I recommend the show no I will not explain why (or?? no actually probably not) #There is only pain and suffering and half-finished hunger games crossovers (I won't explain. Only read and write and suffer.) #I am Forever Angry #supernatural #just yelling into the void #also I forgot to mention that I AM in all of the aforementioned fandoms #Just not obsessed w them at the moment and that is the real tragedy #not me (crying) desperately trying to divide my fixation time between lotr criminal minds and spn in that order #also this will be the only spn thing for rn because I refuse to indulge it on tumblr until i finish my lotr re-read #Edit: it’s really ironic I mention Merlin considering right after this I found out it was the 15th anniversary and so posted a bunch for it