#That said holy shit that confession with Jel

[palialaina]

I have been staring at this page for like... twenty minutes, trying to figure out where to start. I know it's my own journal, but still. Today was just. It's been...

Okay.

I'm gonna back up.

I have been trying, very hard, to not step on TIsh's toes. I couldn't just come out and ask if she or Reth have feelings for Jel, and I mean... I also don't want to ruin the friendships I'm building either by presuming too much.

I told Kenyatta about the letter Zeki sent me, and she said he was just trying to make a quick coin, but also that Grimalkin have a really up there sense of smell, so he could probably... smell my interest, even if he didn't know who it was aimed at.

That's really really weird to think about. I'm not gonna think about it.

Anyways, she also said that if it was her, she'd just confess.

I pointed out that she and Nai'o only think their subtle, and she hit me with a sheaf of papers. I'm glad we're friends.

I asked Dad about it too. Sort of. More like he saw I was moping around town a little while I tried to decide and gently dragged me up to the Remembrance Garden to pry it out of me. I don't remember having a dad, but if I did, I hope he was as nice as Ashura.

And Ashura said that I couldn't control what someone else felt about me, but also that if I didn't try, I'd never know, and settling, like Eshe and Kenli, was a far cry from being in love with your potential life partner.

Dad's definitely got some romantic in him though, cause he told me a little about how he courted Sabine, and it was adorable. I keep wondering...

Getting ahead of myself.

So I took the money from the house fun, and bought some chocolates from Zeki... and then proceeded to avoid town and do everything but give them to Jel.

In my defense, I panicked.

He uh... well, he tracked me down? I mean, not like I was really hiding. I was so tongue tied, I just... shoved the box at him, and the way his face lit up. Oh my gosh. Apparently he'd been doing the exact same thing and worrying about what sort of gesture he could make and it was just as simple as this silly box of chocolates...

I don't really know what comes next, but he kissed my cheek before he left, and now I visit the shop and his smile is just so much softer. Oh, I do not know what to do with myself when he smiles at me! I just... I feel all soft and squishy and giddy!

....I hope it doesn't bother Tish any. I really really hope it doesn't. Or Reth...

Ugh. Though, speaking of Jel does remind me of something Hekla asked me to do that was pretty funny.

I really want to know why she wanted a potato, some cloth, and buttons, but at the same time, I'mm a little afraid to ask. The Goldur are strange beings. I mean, I don't think she'd hurt me or anything, but the answer might make my brain hurt?

But it meant I had to go ask Jel if he had any spare buttons, since I... don't. (Maybe I should get a sewing kit? I almost ripped my leggings twice while chasing sernuk...) And he wanted to know if there was any specific types. When I shrugged at him, well, you'd think I'd called down some sort of storm.

When I told him the buttons were for Hekla, he stopped ranting about fabric types vs. button types, and then handed me a couple of blue plastic ones. I don't think he wants to know either. I did tell him I'd come sit through a lesson on buttons and fabrics later though. Honestly, it sounds interesting! I don't think I'll ever be a seamstress the way he's a tailor, but knowing basic repairs can't hurt, can it?

He saw me holding the kamera, and when I explained what it was, he said we should take a picture together. This makes me look so short... but then again, could just be that he's tall?

Maybe both.

I did some more work on building furniture and arranging my house. I think I'm getting better at this! I made myself some shelving for my loose dishes, a couple cabinets for some spare things, moved the planter Jel gave me into my room, picked up some candles...

Oh, and the lute! I have to remember to ask Uncle B to teach me how to play sometime! I tried it myself earlier, but I must have calluses in all teh wrong spots, since now my fingers are kind of... um... bloody.

I may have tried a little too hard. Oops.

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