#There are so many issues and diseases stuck in this relationship especially now that Marigold is dead but like

[crows-bite]

Been thinking so much about Marigold specifically in the ORP universe so I’m obligated to come make a whole post to explain some of my thoughts.

I don’t knowwww I just think a lot about how Maverick was. Very clearly loved by this woman. Like they still carry that love with them in little ways, they’ve been marked by it forever you know? Like she was not their mother, and their relationship was very non conventional but she was like. As Good As a mother to them. I think she saw herself like a mother even if Mav never saw her that way. It kills me because their relationship in ORP is honestly much less complicated and a lot better than it is in canon. Marigold is like… well tbh I can’t get into it because spoilers but she is very morally questionable and kinda fucked up but like her care for Mav is still very much there.

I wouldn’t be able to say for sure but I honestly don’t think it’s out of the question that in ORP she died getting in the way of The Dread and trying to give Mav the best chance possible at running. But like MAV DOESN’T KNOW THAT and it’s fucked them up so badly. Because they never looked back, man. They just ran immediately and even if it’s what she would’ve wanted them to do they just fully believe they left her for dead.

Like. Ok. Atp Mav is just of the mindset of like. That loss hurt so badly because what do you do when you’ve got nobody else and the one person in the world that loves you like family dies and you think it’s your fault, you know? But they’ve just got this anger about the whole situation. Angry at themself but also angry at her because if she hadn’t died they’d still have somebody. It’s just really soured their whole perception of her isn’t that nuts. As if she did it on purpose. (THE THING IS SHE KINDA DID OUT OF LOVE AND THEY DON’T KNOWWWW THEY DON’T EVEN KNOWWW) and now all of those feelings have just been reinforced x100 being with the Brooks family because they don’t have that. And maybe they would if Marigold were still alive.

#ORP #Maverick Clarke #Marigold #Gripping my head and whatnot you know #Gestures madly #Like do you see do you understand #There are so many issues and diseases stuck in this relationship especially now that Marigold is dead but like #UGH. UGH. #Once I give her a proper redesign and fullbody it’s over #She’s honestly such a good person in ORP because she’s got a lot of love in her heart always but once you take away the [BLEEP] from canon #Like #She’s just very chill #I do find her more interesting in canon though because morally #There’s a lot going on #And her relationship with Maverick and the strained quality to it and like #Maverick’s anger is a lot more understandable and grounded #But ORP still kills me. #IDK MAN YOU EVER THINK ABOUT HOW #THEIR HAT LIKE THAT THING NEVER FUCKING LEAVES THEIR HEAD #THEY’VE BUILT THEIR IMAGE AROUND THAT THING #AND MARIGOLD MADE IT FOR THEM…? #It’s honestly kind of a childish design like who goes around with a beanie with horns on it like it’s intimidating or scary you know #But she made it for them and it’s the one thing they really have. #That shows that. #Spews blood