#IDK MAN YOU EVER THINK ABOUT HOW

[crows-bite]

Been thinking so much about Marigold specifically in the ORP universe so I’m obligated to come make a whole post to explain some of my thoughts.

I don’t knowwww I just think a lot about how Maverick was. Very clearly loved by this woman. Like they still carry that love with them in little ways, they’ve been marked by it forever you know? Like she was not their mother, and their relationship was very non conventional but she was like. As Good As a mother to them. I think she saw herself like a mother even if Mav never saw her that way. It kills me because their relationship in ORP is honestly much less complicated and a lot better than it is in canon. Marigold is like… well tbh I can’t get into it because spoilers but she is very morally questionable and kinda fucked up but like her care for Mav is still very much there.

I wouldn’t be able to say for sure but I honestly don’t think it’s out of the question that in ORP she died getting in the way of The Dread and trying to give Mav the best chance possible at running. But like MAV DOESN’T KNOW THAT and it’s fucked them up so badly. Because they never looked back, man. They just ran immediately and even if it’s what she would’ve wanted them to do they just fully believe they left her for dead.

Like. Ok. Atp Mav is just of the mindset of like. That loss hurt so badly because what do you do when you’ve got nobody else and the one person in the world that loves you like family dies and you think it’s your fault, you know? But they’ve just got this anger about the whole situation. Angry at themself but also angry at her because if she hadn’t died they’d still have somebody. It’s just really soured their whole perception of her isn’t that nuts. As if she did it on purpose. (THE THING IS SHE KINDA DID OUT OF LOVE AND THEY DON’T KNOWWWW THEY DON’T EVEN KNOWWW) and now all of those feelings have just been reinforced x100 being with the Brooks family because they don’t have that. And maybe they would if Marigold were still alive.

#ORP #Maverick Clarke #Marigold #Gripping my head and whatnot you know #Gestures madly #Like do you see do you understand #There are so many issues and diseases stuck in this relationship especially now that Marigold is dead but like #UGH. UGH. #Once I give her a proper redesign and fullbody it’s over #She’s honestly such a good person in ORP because she’s got a lot of love in her heart always but once you take away the [BLEEP] from canon #Like #She’s just very chill #I do find her more interesting in canon though because morally #There’s a lot going on #And her relationship with Maverick and the strained quality to it and like #Maverick’s anger is a lot more understandable and grounded #But ORP still kills me. #IDK MAN YOU EVER THINK ABOUT HOW #THEIR HAT LIKE THAT THING NEVER FUCKING LEAVES THEIR HEAD #THEY’VE BUILT THEIR IMAGE AROUND THAT THING #AND MARIGOLD MADE IT FOR THEM…? #It’s honestly kind of a childish design like who goes around with a beanie with horns on it like it’s intimidating or scary you know #But she made it for them and it’s the one thing they really have. #That shows that. #Spews blood

[tubbytarchia]

Missed drawing these two too

Bonuses

#rendoc #still thinking about them a lot #always #hermitshipping #sorry for the weird empty area in the first one. It was my attempt to make it take up less of people's timelines #this art is so embarrassing lol but man I like when Doc's drawn as a big goat man I have no defense I plead the fifth #or well at least it becomes embarrassing when its. shippy #whatever Tumblr people are usually cool so here goes!! #I am 99% a fluff and hurt/comfort person. Idc how frisky these guys get in fanon all I can ever think of is fluff sorry #Also contemplated implementing Doc's accent into the dialogue but I am forever paranoid of offending someone lol #idk how to write accents etc but you guys will make it sound fine in your heads I'm sure #hermitblr #tubby art

[toytulini]

okay

#toy txt post #toy poll post #polls #flowers #i dont think i have ever beem able to smell specific flower scents but i think i just never noticed it? #but i Definitely noticed it when i was posting pictures of the lemon tree blossoms and ppl were like 'ohhh those must smell amazing!' #and i was like. idk they smell like flowers to me. #and other ppl were like ohhh they smell like. a little hint of lemon essential oil and so sweet and light and nice and i was like #sniffs again. yeah not getting all that bud. but i let everyone have fun imagining that in the comments #but idk they all just kinda smell to me like. i would describe it as a pollen scent? #it gives pollen vibes #and like i can smell Plenty Of Other Things like i feel like im very susceptible to noticing the smell of this sat in the washing machine #too long. etc. and its not from the One Time i caught covid either. cos it was before that #seems largely fine but you know how we aroaces like to make posts like man i thought yall were just exaggerating about this for yrssss #thats how im feeling about the flower smell i think. are yall really smelling differences or is this some wine tasting placebo shit

[gameboyhamazing]

thinking abt the inherent tragedy of being in timeloops in a setting (game, franchise, etc.) where half the value is getting attached and sharing experiences with ppl but bc of the timeloops they never remember the experiences you had and may in fact never meet you again because it hurts you too much to try and relate to them again

#i was thinking about pokemon #and how in the context of a pkmn game #timeloops are esp. tragic #bc in pkmn when u reset thats just it. you will never ever see those pokemon again #you can find one with the same stats maybe. same gender #same everything. same name. same moves abilities etc. #but they will never be the ones you met first #no matter how long you spend with them they are still different beings entirely no matter how closely identical #idk man it kinda fucky #this applies to other franchise timeloops n shit but pkmn hits diff for some reason #bc every mon you meet is randomized and created on the spot and for that reason there's always something different #idk how to phrase it better but. yeah.

[sunnykeysmash]

Man of words

#s16 spoilers #iasip #it's always sunny in philadelphia #always sunny #macdennis #analysis #parallels #I didn't exactly know how to name this thread but i had some scattered thoughts on it #dennis is the one mac depends on to define things. he's the man of words. but this situation is very limiting #firstly because mac can't read subtext. and dennis will rarely be open in his words. but he also doesn't know everything. #cant define everything. and by forcing the situation to have dennis speak for both. what actually happens is mac gets silenced #and when mac cant speak. no one besides dennis can ever possibly understand him. and that is very isolating. because den wont be open. cant #but they trust each other. theyre following each other's lead. and they're missing the right words #den defines his own self worth in the relationship by being able to have the right words. mac is the man of action! after all #but if mac learns to speak for himself. if mac doesn't depend on den (chokes). if mac is noticed for his appearance as den becomes insecure #(''what if my shirt falls off?'') what does den have left for mac? but mac will fall for him no matter what. #''make up or not you are the golden god! it's all about what's in here💗'' #maybe words arent necessary anymore. dont ask just do. and mac's the man of action... OR IS HE. #mac doesn't really act now does he. they got it backwards. don't they? mac got a lot better with his words in time... #idk lots to think about let me know what u think lolll #threads

[michelle-jacksons-art-blog]

I haven't even watched the movie yet

#you don't understand how insane how manic he drove me like yesterday #some god-iluminated being made an edit of him on tik tok set to the 'baila moreno' bit of 'baila moreno' and I am still livid about it #don't even get me started on the ones set to #secreto de amor #like don't even #anyway i love him I think that everything wrong and everything right he has ever done are both caused by him being at least part mexican #and I can say that because I too am a mexican #so anyway tags #miguel o'hara #spiderman 2099 #across the spiderverse #spiderman #my art #fanart #idk man just look at him #also turn the brightness of your device to the top for better experience thank you

[crabbunch]

woahhhhhh moons big.

#bdouble0 #i guess lol #its his base in any case #man. do you guys ever think about how like. his moon base. and mooons big #idk theres smth here but im eepy and idk how to say it :C #yeah. yeah. just consider. guy who loves telling stories and falling on swords #predicting the end of the world #or smth

[opikiquu]

aventurine pl. Plea s e . PLLEEEEEEASE

#★ arin rambles #‘here we go again’ you think everytime you see my ramble tag. I dont blame you #AVENTURINE AVENTURINE PLEASE SAVE ME WHITE BOY #OH MY LORD #OH MY GOODNESS GRACIOUS OH MY GOODNESS. #MY JSOE IS RUNNING HES RUINNING MY LIFE I CANT DO THIS ANYMORE IM SO ILL PLEASE I #AVENTURINE. im so serious i can talk about this man all day. and more specifically this video #‘it was just posted 30 minutes ago arin youre scaring the kids’ SILENCE. I NEED SPACE #I NEED A. A MOMENT. EVERYBODY PLEAS GETA WAY FROM ME IM GOING TO GET SO SCARY #Please. Im so sorry. Im begging you . I love this man oh my gish please hes so cute #HES SO CUTE. HES SO CUTE IM SO SICK OF HIM WHY???????? WHY IS HE SO PRETTY HES SO PRETTY HES GOREGOUS HES SO STUNNING. HELLO. HELLO. #Im going to. Slam my head against the wall im overwhelmed with joy and happiness hes everything ive ever wanted ever #any minute not spent talking about him is a moment wasted i promise you MY PRINCESS IM COMING TO SAVE YOU #IM HIS KNIGHT IN SHINING ARMOUR EXCEPT ITS NOT SHINY #IM COVERED IN DIRT #IM STILL COMING FOR YOU AVENTURINE RUN #oh goodness me oh my #im so happy hes so prettu im so happy i cant do rhis im sweating geniumnly i feel so sick #Im cant . Do this anymore. I CANT TAKE IT. I HAVE TO… AAUGH… AAAHH… I HAVE TO…. DANCE! #guys…. he my favorriet… #my slinky….. my krimpet… my teacup i think. My doc mc stuffins doctor playset. My dishwasher. My italian coldsteel cinquedea . atp anything #hes my EVERYTHING. MY EVERYTHING…!!!!!!!! *MY TELEKENISIS THROWS EVERYTTHING ACROSS THE ROOM* #yall i dont think ive had a hyperfixation this horribly bad since. Since the. Since. MAN I DONT KNOW #IM COOKED. HE WOMT LEAVE ME ALONE. I LITERALLY DREAMT OF HIM LAST NIGHT LIKE IM SO DOOMED? ACTUALLY? #oh to be medicated and focus on . Things like cooking. Or idk. Getting a job. No i just think about some messed up blonde all day im absolut #ly DOOMED #yes im still yapping i got 30 tags u gon stick through them all. Every single one of them. Dont leave me please i want to talk about him ton #TO SOMEONE. I WANT TO TALK ABOUT HIM TO SOMEONE ALL DAY. ALL MY FRIENDS ARE TESTING. IM LEFT ALONE ALL DAY I JUST WANT TO TALK ABOUT MY WIFE #i womder how crazy i look right now #Sighs lovingly at him..

[catkin-morgs-kookaburralover]

questioning sexuality is so exhausting

#(edit: sorry for the rant in the tags and i just. i want someone to talk to me) #i keep on doing it for no apparent reason #someone was talking about lust yesterday and i realised today that. #even tho id thought i don't experience it. i possibly do. but exclusively towards women. #i hate it here! #for a multitude of reasons i will never have a relationship with a woman but! i may be incapable of having a relationship with a man! #at some point in the last few months i have abruptly pivoted from definitely wanting marriage and kids to being ambivalent on marriage #and not wanting kids. that's such an outlier in my life that it might just be a mental health thing tho idk #but at the same time i. want to be loved. #i don't know what i want anymore and im tired of questioning myself #i definitely overthink it but idk how to stop it #and i hate hate hate how the moral obsessions have bee lately #this isn't entirely related but it kind of is #like Am i a terrible morally bankrupt person for having certain thoughts or is it just religious ocd go brrrr?? am i overthinking it? #i don't know. i don't know! #for a while labelling myself as arospec ace kinda calmed that down but. i don't know #i do't want to be attracted to women. i don't want to have to look away so often. i don't want any of that. #but i don't know how to stop it. #i don't even know if i'm attracted to men at all. #this is a cry for help and encouragement and prayers no matter what your views on these matters are #queer stuff tag #i nearly fessed up to my friend yesterday about same sex attraction and i might've except that it would have probably outed me as #the person who anonymously sent in a question several months ago about the side b movement to a church thing #ive only told one person at church about any of that sort of stuff and it was very vaguely worded #also see: this friend is the mother of the boy i?? i don't even know how i feel about him #i increasingly think it wasn't romantic at all. but i don't know #i would love any encouragement you got. anything at all. #i don't know how much this stuff is affected by the fact that i consider myself unloveable and think it highly unlikely any boy will ever #care for me #now im rambling. sorry

[difeisheng]

do you ever think about how li lianhua told a-fei that "[he] died once ten years ago", and so he thought li xiangyi and di feisheng were both dead men while himself and a-fei were just the afterimages, ghosts, restarts, and the only time he was ever able to voice that they were doomed kindred spirits was when he was safe in the cowardice of knowing that the man who's walked life and its opposite with him would never understand

#DO YOU EVER THINK ABOUT HOW THE SHOW MARRIED DI FEISHENG TO A DEAD MAN #BUT LI LIANHUA THOUGHT HE WAS MARRYING SOMEONE ALREADY DEAD WITH HIM #ugufjdjs idk if this makes sense im just screaming but anyways #mysterious lotus casebook #feihua #li xiangyi #di feisheng #ashton originals

[cold-neon-ocean]

Posting this by itself because :) I just feel like he should have gotten to wear the mech pilot suit at least once..

(my AU black version and the og green)

#Legend of Korra #Baatar Jr. #LoK #WIP #[ since this is from something silly I wanted to post this bit because he is serving very cunty #even if you know he's talking about accidentally ingesting caustic chemicals lol #this was def self indulgent but also why couldn't he have worn the suit at least once sobs #we had one chance #I don't actually think he uses the mech suit hardly ever even though he has his own personal one #but on rare occasions he does and gets in this outfit and Kuvira are you okay? Are you good? Has anyone checked on her? #I feel like this outfit is what causes her to take a serious sanity hit LOL #she just drags him away by the hood and no one sees them again for like 4 hours #or she's just like “You know what I think he could use my help :)” and proceeds to be everything but helpful #idk how anything in this regime gets done I swear #the most Baatar ever used the mech suits was when they were first being built #idk dude I love a man in a working uniform sobs #I knew someone would recognize the mech pilot suit hehe that made me smile because yeah :))) #it felt good to draw Baatar again sobs I love him so much I've missed him #I do kinda wish this sketch was cleaner but I wanted to at least post it now in case I never did lol #I should to a proper illust of him in the pilot suit one day just for the pure self indulgence of it all #give myself a lill treat you know? ] #Neon Ocean Art

[rystiel]

people complaining about the clone high reboot are so funny to me like “they’re ruining the show and tarnishing its name” brother this is the most unserious show out there. abraham lincoln and gandhi have made out on screen. why are you worried about its legacy rn

#besides… i think the reboot is good… sue me #people are acting like the new seasons are the worst things to ever exist but they’re silly and entertaining and fun to watch?? #maybe y’all are just putting s1 on too high of a pedastal or smthn when u compare s2 & s3 to it… tbh #anyway. went to look up a scene on youtube and all of the comments were complaining about how much clone high sucks now #like ​wym you hope it never gets renewed ???? don’t do this to me man #maybe i have a high tolerance for shitty shows. idk. but clone high is still good idc #clone high #clone high reboot

[heartslobbf]

being deranged about azure paler than the sky again. like girl i am literally all mysteries in creation near and far far and near i am all the mysteries (because i am a closeted lesbian). the representation of my lesbianism was cut from around my neck, symbolising both a violent attempt to ‘correct’ my identity and my own personal realisation that my infatuation with a girl is making me loathe that identity. it agonises me. i forfeit my duel because i realise i cannot exist in this system as i am, and i want to be that even as it is painful and unfulfilling. the symbol of holy matrimony and heteronormativity literally weeps over me for making this choice. i make it anyway. i am all mysteries in creation. ALSO, the utenanthy bedroom scene that episode is maddening to me and juri’s car sequence is one of my ult faves and all the imagery this episode (the chairs!!!!!!!) is on point, as with all juri episodes. also i am all mysteries in creation btw

#ok whatever im normal im normal im normal #idk man i just think an episode that so aptly expresses the struggles of being a lesbian and ultimately says it’s the bravest thing is like #the best thing ever???? like the world will be unkind to you and will not attempt to understand you and the girl you love may be cruel #but despite that. you know how you feel and you accept that and you don’t compromise or repress that. like like #being able to feel pride. actually. being resolute about who you are in the face of extreme adversity #this episode to me is just like. so incredibly compassionate so keen to tell you it’s going to be ok and you just have to choose that #you have to want it and work for it. and it isn’t always fair but it IS worth it #ok im going off on one now hahaha im normal :) #tldr i am all mysteries in creation :) #revolutionary girl utena #rgu #shut up daisy

[fleshdyke]

#csa warning for tags #ughhh ik i was just talking abt this but man. Man. constantly bullied as a child + raped as a child is a brutal combo huh #completely irreversibly fucked up sense of intimacy. i dont want to have sex with anyone i dont care what ppl think of me looks wise but i #also care more than anything and want people to want me so bad #like when ur only experience with anyone at all finding you desirable is being raped at 6ish. fucks u up man #was constantly told by everyone i knew that i was undesirable from day fucking one. i was always the one ppl would dare their friends to #'ask out' bc everyone thought i was that bad. i never had those rumours of 'some boy likes you' without people laughing in the background #all of my friends. even the ones that were also weird kids and bullied etc etc always have stories of other kids having crushes on them or #whatever. and i just never had that. it feels like i missed out on something important #i want to be pursued by a guy i hate i want them to not leave me alone. i want to feel like im in danger. and i know how fucking disgusting #that is but i cant help it. like i feel like thats the only way im going to feel normal and wanted like theres not something inherently #wrong with me. and i know how dangerous that is but its not like it matters anyways bc still no one likes me at all. #and i know how stupid of a thing it is to obsess over like what am i 9 years old? but i just cant get it out of my head #like idk i feel like the only way im going to actually feel desirable at all is if someone tries to rape me again. or if i feel like i have #to worry about someone raping me again. i know i wouldnt feel that way if someone was like. nice about it. #bc if someone genuinely liked me and was a decent human being about it i wouldnt be able to see it as anything other than faking it for pit #i wouldnt be able to believe it. even if i wasnt waiting for them to drop the joke and start laughing at me i would always think it was jus #an act bc they feel bad for me. the only way i could ever think it's genuine and that i'm desirable at all is if someone sexually #harassed me. like idk how to explain it but thats the only way i could feel desirable at all #bc it's the only way i've ever been desirable. when i was a kid. #and it terrifies me so bad bc i know how fucking disgusting that is and how self destructive it is #but i still feel like i dont even have to really worry about being assaulted. bc i still believe im completely undesirable at my core. #i dont believe i could be desired so i dont believe i have to worry about being raped. bc no one would want to anyways #rambles #vent

[domesticangel]

telling people they lack reading/media comprehension used to actually mean something and now it’s just something people say when they actually mean “u criticized something I like so I’m gonna play superiority complex and say u ackshually 🤓☝🏻just didn’t like it bc u didn’t Get It and aren’t as smart as me☝🏻☝🏻☝🏻”

#post inspired by reading reviews of poor things . #everyone who didn’t like it is getting Well Actually’d by all the geeks who either think it’s a feminist masterpiece #or simply too quirked up to be susceptible to criticism #or people who think that because it was ‘supposed’ to make you uncomfortable that it’s like #beyond reproach or further analysis. #or oh my god. ‘umm it’s satire!!!’ oh so we can’t talk about it? At all? #please. you sound like everyone who’s ever called South Park a satirical masterpiece 😭 #if you can’t see how a Man making This Film the Particular Way that he did is a little weird. then I can’t help you #go stare at the pretty colors idk. #txt

[perilegs]

uuultrac is like if they made yaoi for bisexuals

#i wish it wasnt marketed as a yaoi game so more people wojld play it bc it is a masterpiece in visual novels #no one has ever used color like uuultrac #it's. something else man. idk how to tell you all how much i love uuultrac and want everyone to play it but it's insanely good. #mutuals if you play it you are encouraged to liveblog it to me #i have a friend playing through it rn and i am LIVING THANK YOU #anyways im thinking about my nro one girl miyamoto #shes so based at all times #there are themes in uuultrac that make me insane only in the context of uuultrac bc they are executed so incredibly well #uuultrac