#a lifelong social anxiety disorder and fear of confrontation. and that authorities don't fix problems.

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what was wrong with my ward that we had multiple sunday school lessons preaching about the virtue of not complaining

#vent post #and why was i always the one carrying the burden of keeping the class functional and then being punished for the other kids acting out #man! i was eleven years old and severely sleep deprived! why was i expected to act like an adult! #just because the actual adults couldn't keep the rest of the kids on topic during class doesn't mean I should have had to! #and it definitely shouldn't have been a reason to take away the coping mechanism i was using to fight through four different disorders #(me an the other kid who were drawing during class were NOT the ones causing trouble.) #and i am STILL working on unlearning the idea that everything's gonna fall apart if #i specifically am not perfect and helpful and emotionally level and full of all the right answers #all the time. #'your child was a pleasure to have in class' yeah and the only thing she's learning from said class is #a lifelong social anxiety disorder and fear of confrontation. and that authorities don't fix problems. #(<-posts that make you realize why you've latched onto your current blorbos so hard) #(been looking at thses character sgoing 'hey why do i relate to you. my family was awesome.' but uh. i forgot the rest of my #childhood social circle wasn't)