#ah gods i must be so annoyiny to him

[thuidium-delicatulum]

i feel very friendless right now because one of my friends is in australia, one is in a camp and the other two just don't go on their phones very much. i should just survive but i genuinely just want to ice skate with my friends or get lunch together or anything that normal friends do. oh i have a question if anyone is listening. what do friends do together? a friend asked me and i didn't know what to say to him and now i can't stop thinking about it. and him. and my other 3 friends. AAAA I MISS MY FRIENDS. do they even like me?? ah damn i just remembered two of them follow me here. i wish i could just be cold. and i wish they would remember i exist.

#okay that was a bit harsh #i'm sure they care about me #but why wont they talk to me #i should maybe sleep #or eat #or drink #is it normal to constantly think about one specific friend #but it definitely isn't romantic i just want to be around him a lot??? #ahaaaah i'm screwed #does he even like me??? #ah gods i must be so annoyiny to him #i'm trying #oh gods what if he sees this #i'm a lesbian i swear #i can handle this #hes aromantic anyway #i dont think i am but i dont think of him in a romantic way #i just think about him a lot #i hope he is doing well #maybe i should just go to sleep #or listen to some music #i wonder how his camps going #i need to stop #his hair is really fluffy and a pretty colour #he dyed it a few weeks ago #i want to hug him #but he doesn't like hugs #but he still hugs me #it makes me sad #i only want to hug him if he enjoys it