#ahhhhhh i was REALLY good at playing the clarinet. and the piano. i really hate myself for giving them both up.

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I was wondering why Apep's boss theme sounded so familiar, like I was having heavy nostalgia trying to figure it out, but it reminds me of something from Kingdom Hearts, which I haven't played in so, so long!! Like especially the parts that involve the flute and clarinet??

omg y'all didn't know but I used to play the clarinet in middle school and grade nine, and we had to put on a little performance once, and I played one of the OSTs from the second game ksdjfsldgslk thinking about it kinda gets me cringy BUT it's a core memory where the aftermath of the performance unfortunately made me not want to play it anymore......... it's such a shame.

#ahhhhhh i was REALLY good at playing the clarinet. and the piano. i really hate myself for giving them both up. #guitar? not so much. i hated playing the guitar. #i have a clarinet saved into my amazon wishlist so i can buy one again bc i would love to relearn it. #ahhh yknow i always say how boring and mundane my life has always been?? #at least that's what its always felt like from my perspective; i don't really change my routine and maybe that's why #BUT i have actually been blessed enough to experience SO MUCH in my life around all the bad things? #and when i was a teenager i think i really took that for granted. especially when it came to my health. #the fact that i dropped the clarinet mid-grade nine ended up being that awful culmination of the bad things i had to experience #but in hindsight i think if i continued to force myself to play it and/or the piano i would've ended up hating both of them. #my love for either won't ever go away nor will it decrease anymore (which i'm also grateful for) #and hopefully one day i WILL get back into the clarinet #but i'm grown enough now to put certain things into perspective that i can control the bad things that can happen to me or my health #so thinking about all the memories of playing that instrument when things were still good...... that's also an honour for me to hold onto. #now my favourite game has so many songs that has the clarinet in it and that really makes me so happy. #hahaha idk if this was all just random rambling but....... it made me happy to talk about and reminisce on. #:) #✦ nc vb.