#also feeling like i wasted money cause i got a world anvil yearly thing and i love it but. i rarely use it for the above reasons

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i hate world building cause i’ll have short periods of time where it’s the only thing i wanna work on and i get a bunch of ideas super quickly and the rest of the time is spent like. wow this is the worst thing i’ve ever made i should just scrap it entirely and never look at it again cause i suck at it. and then there’s right now which is a weird blend of the two

#like i wanna work on it rn but. also have no ideas and i don’t know where to proceed #like i have to change some stuff for it to work. and i don’t wanna think about it cause it feels like i’m going so far from original idea. #like i was gonna make it a dnd campaign for my friends but i keep thinking that’s not the best format for this cause im shit at writing #and dont think i can make the story at cool and interesting as i want it to be #or that it’s even as cool and interesting as i think it is #like i keep thinking this would work better as a book or another format #but i can’t write! especially beginnings and endings so i feel like i’m stuck in a weird middle and it sucks #i’ve been working on this for years now and i feel like i’ve gotten nowhere for the amount of time i’ve spent on it #it’s so unmotivating and the more i think about it the less i wanna work on it cause i have such high expectations for it #that i know for a fact it’ll never reach #i’m just. #i’m just really sad about it. like about to cry about it sad #vent #i guess #i love writing in the tags cause no one reads them #also feeling like i wasted money cause i got a world anvil yearly thing and i love it but. i rarely use it for the above reasons #ugh i hate this #me rambling #the urge to delete everything i’ve done for it thus far is so real rn