#also my throat feela like its closing up

[zarovich]

tbh i just keep getting worse

#personal #vent #been doing things without remembering? like i have blackouts in my memories... i already had a bad memory but fuck #also ive completely lost track of time like idk i keep forgetting so much #that was bad before too but not on this level #ive been forgetting a lot sometimes i forget where i am and who i am #also my throat feela like its closing up #ive had throat problems for a long time... have had problema with swallowing things #but i now i struggle with swallowing water #i cant even swallow my own spit sometimees without having difficulty and choking #wtf is wrong with me wtf is wrong i want to die man im not gonna recover am i?? im getting worse and worse #plus nothing even feels real nothing has ever felt real #fucking hell #what the point man #i just wanna sleep all the time evwry day... no point in being awake bc i dont do anything anyways #also ive stoped talking to pretty nuch everyone besides one persom and ive been wanting to stop talking to them too #bc i dint deserve to talk to others when all i do os hurt everyone and cause issues :/ #im gonna forgey i even made this post arent i??? im gonna check back few hours later and be confused #i kkow it i just know bc ive left similar messages to myself #ehhhh wtf...