#alter: chunn 2.0

[system-of-a-feather]

Hey its Chunn 2.0 (Technically XIV 2.5, but different dominance balance) and I'm out here for a specific reason and its made me realize two things.

Firstly, I am so huge on team full titty chop - cause damn I was thinking about real shit and got jumpscared by huge titties and it nearly broke my vibe ngl. Good thing we have our consult in two days.

Secondly, it's kinda funny when you know the context, but I think I'm gonna be the part assigned to being support for our fiance when hes at his worst cause a lot of our other parts are too cerebral or high energy or honestly concerned and mentally "busy"

And our fiance is very much a complete freeze response where his body physically tries to shut him down and everything short of sleeping and dense dissociation (DPDR) causes a migraine or panic attack. Which honestly is completely opposite of our system's coping as people that get busy when at our worst; so a lot of parts are pretty lost as to what to do to help and cause theyre cerebral they try to solve it in their own head which makes it ironically harder to just be there with him. For most of the system, its either "fix it" or leave him on his own and they struggle to do anything in the grey zone solely cause its not a learned skill and they worry and thus stress themselves out a bit too much (thus making their energy go up, which is not helpful)

Where as like me? My empathy is shot so hard, even if I wanted to worry and be stressed with you, I fuckin cant mate. But thats okay cause you look like you need a break, like you need something chill and that sir, I love chill.

Hey if you need a low energy source of calm and stability I'm great at that. Hey man, we can go sit and watch ducks tomorrow for like four hours idk man.

And thats cool and all, but the funny thing is, when I first resplit as Chunn 1.0 I stressed the system out cause I really had a lot of negative reactions to him and him being mentally ill cause of trauma and general overload and shit. I was literally like "hey yall I think we should just break shit off cause yadayada" and I actively avoided and disliked him specifically 😂

And so here I am being like "Hey yall, if you guys dont mind, Ill handle him when hes having huge recovery crashes and seemingly developing agoraphobia cause man, same hat ngl ngl /hj /lh"

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