#always this. always weak. always just wanting meds. i hate what antivax bullshit has done to how they already are to me.

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illness talk / medicine / family associated stuff i dont know

#i just want my folks to be nice to me sometimes. i'm not a bad person for being sick and wanting help. im not doing this for attention #my chest and ribs ache and so much as looking at my inhaler and antibios to help with it brought the 'youre like an addict' talk again. #yknow the one last here when i still needed help for depression. talking to me like i'm stupid or saying i want to be drugged up... #they insisted i revisit the doc for another perscrip after this ran out for my pneumonia and now i'm. disgusting for it. #i'm being dramatic about A Little Cold where coughing and breathing near made me cry at work #my managers and every coworker conspiring to make my whole shift a break cause they saw it hurt so bad that day but #but here it's just. attention. 'no one can tell you to stop! a trooper! proud of you!' and when i need help/get TOLD to ask for it... this #always this. always weak. always just wanting meds. i hate what antivax bullshit has done to how they already are to me. #its one of those nights again. sorry. my heart aches again and i thought id finally at least be bodily better soon. now im nauseous #and my head hurts. i wish i could go to work n was healthy enough to so wouldnt need to think anymore at least. remember i exist this way #delete later #i don'tbknow how to tw this. im sorry.