#am i already swimming in a soup of self loathing

[meduseld]

brah you cannot leave me hanging with that dep as the mother thing! pls you already picked betty gilpin i already have heart eyes

Ok yes, I was not expecting it but people love her as the Dep.

But yeah, the thing is, Joseph in all his Joseph-ness would have wanted a female Dep to be the Mother to his Father and it’s practically canon (and is in my heart) that Dep/Judge raised Ethan the rest of the way.

And then there’s the thing that I’ve said that Judge also had very deep ties to New Eden as a community and it would be very hard to leave them (as Joseph planned) but how much harder would it be with y’know actual children?

So in my head there’s this idea that Dep is pregnant when they get locked in the bunker (like three months and yes she’s panicked but there’s not much she could do given the circumstances and yes it’s Sharky’s but no one knows that not even Sharky) and Joseph is freaking delighted because “see? This is God’s plan! I will be Father to your child because I am the Father” and honestly there isn’t much she can do and Joseph does his brainwashing deal because she’s destined to be the Mother, can’t she see, and well her kid is a hostage to fortune and New Eden, not to mention well the bunker and being supremely vulnerable and well. She has more children. 

And then when they go topside she *cannot* even think of going back to Prosperity because what will they think of her? Her children? She bore his heirs, she’s his now, she can’t leave him, her people need her she’s their Mother too, yeah you know all the awful traumatic stuff that follows as logic to how Far Cry plays out tbh and yes part of this is because I want to explore the trauma canon glosses over gdi. But then there is Ethan who is jealous of her son (which scares her because she knows Ethan will kill him for the heir slot even though Ethan is older; in my mind she only bears Joseph daughters which to her is kind of a funny cosmic fuck you but Joseph like. Genuinely loves them and it sucks because she doesn’t want them to hate her Father who is honestly making them a life and a home and it’s not like they can bounce or whatever but ow ow ow), so in this world when the Cap comes by, New Eden is being led by the Mother in a quiet power struggle with Ethan and she pretends she also thinks Joseph is dead but knows in her heart he isn’t, and then as she wouldn’t leave New Eden, she sends her eldest, her son, with the Cap in part to keep him safe, in part because he’s their greatest hunstman, in part vain hope he might find Sharky if he’s even still alive, and in part knowing that Carmina is around and about her son’s age.

And then it’s her eldest daughter who inherits New Eden and she’s the one to mercy kill her husband and she has an awkward but ultimately loving reunion with the Ryes and Sharky.

#will anybody else carE? #could this get me cancelled? #am i already swimming in a soup of self loathing? #you know the answers #but #i'm past caring i guess #far cry 5 #ocs #so i can find it