#and I loved watching baby kanade be scary but also very adorable and the fact that she self taught herself cordes is sooo delightful

[arolesbianism]

Impulsively read the most recent Kanade story and oh boy. Hooo boy. Thoughts and feelings

#rat rambles #sekai posting #I almost cried like five times godddddd I love kanade so much its insane #ok so. lets start with the positives #I am so fucking happy that they finally did an event like this. kanade has been in desperate need of any kind of character arc progression #and generally I rly like how kanade is written in this event! #I loved watching her just like. think to herself. #and I loved watching baby kanade be scary but also very adorable and the fact that she self taught herself cordes is sooo delightful #it also is yet again more insight into how kanade became the person she is today and also a wonderful look into how kanade views these #time and time again when kanade thinks about being happy and being loved its when her mom was alive #but its not just abt her mom being alive its also about her dad being so genuinely happy #its about her dad taking care of her and comforting her and being happy and it's just!! aughhh!!!! #I love that kanade doesnt just forgive herself just like that. she still blames herself so much and deals with self loathing. #butttt. that sorta leaves me to my nitpicks. I rly wish someone would just hug this kid and tell her its not her fault so that I can feel #secure in the sekai writers not actually buying the idea that its in any way kanade's fault #like it is in no way her fault that her dad formed an inferiority complex around his teenage daughter. #Im not saying its his fault either Im saying its no ones fault #they get close in this event to saying that tbf so Im not like pessimistic again its a nitpick #and the other thing is that Im not quite a fan of the conclusion but not in any huge way #just in a god this better be another step in a much longer character arc sorta thing #also Im trying to make my peace with the song to save mafuyu thing since I know theyre never dropping it #but god its so hard when it feels like the only satisfying way to do it is in a slow burn where at the end mafuyu realizes the slow burn #basically yknow how at the beginning mafuyu was upset at the prospect of kanades music only saving them a little? #I want them to realize that all of these little steps forward Did save them #that even if one song couldnt fix everything the fact that all of these songs have been there to help guide them did so much for them #I want the song that 'saves' them to be a song that makes them realize they Were saved #they survived. theyre living. and they want to keep living. #I want the penultimate kanade song to be a song of realization #oh also other negative no singing baby kanade worst event /j