#and Im allowed to reclaim slurs and Im allowed to defend myself from bigotry and Im allowed to be fucking angry abt it

[arolesbianism]

Man I've gotta be mean more often Im so sick of being polite abt bigotry I should just start killing ppl fr

#rat rambles #Im tired of babysitting ignorant ppl Im tired of trying to be nice abt shit someone needs to give me a gun #Im tired of trying to be presentable towards ppl who are on the fense abt shit Im tired of sanitising myself #I wanna reclaim slurs I wanna be angry I want to be loud I want to just yell at ppl that they Should be uncomfortable they Should be upset #you Shouldnt let ppl live in bliss you Should feel targeted when I call out your bullshit because I Am talking abt you fucking get over it #I have been teaching and guiding and explaining for as long as I remember and Im So Fucking Sick Of It #but someone has to. if I can get even one person to support us in a way that matters I have to. #I mean I dont. but I want to. except I also dont because its miserable and it fucking kills me to do. but I couldnt live with myself if I #didnt so here I fucking am. #I just want to be angry without guilt for once in my fucking life. I deserve to be. Im tired of pretending Im not. #goddddd Im so fucking mad rn Im sorry but also Im not but yknow. #I just wanna be more confident abt myself in like every regard like I hate how long its taken me to feel allowed to call myself mexican #yknow. a thing I am and always have beem #like I am still also white for sure and was raised in a very white enviorment but that doesnt stop me from being mexican #and Im allowed to reclaim slurs and Im allowed to defend myself from bigotry and Im allowed to be fucking angry abt it #Im allowed to exist as I am. I thought I had gotten to that point a long time ago but Ive been realising that I rly havent. #rat rants #rat vents #ok anyways. I should rly go to bed now lol #Ill probably be feeling better tomorrow but dont let that make you think my burning rage is gone lol #whatever gn gamers