#and also the elevator is behind a door in a dinky corridor and the door its behind doesnt have a fucking button for it to open itself

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#super cool for my legs to just stop working so i get to be in a ton of pain and nauseous and can also barely even move #and i missed class yesterday because i could literally barely move my legs without crippling pain #but i was at least functional enough today to go even though whats normally a fifteen minute walk across campus became a forty minute walk #and also probably undid whatever healing my rest day did so now im stuck in bed again #and i got to find out that the building my class is in is wildly inaccessible #the only elevator is literally in a different building and there's a slope that is definitely too steep to be ada compliant #and also the elevator is behind a door in a dinky corridor and the door its behind doesnt have a fucking button for it to open itself #and all this time im just thinking about how ive been told i shouldnt use a mobility aid because itll lead to my muscles degrading #like idk man!! #but i think maybe being able to use my legs at all even if theyre. #a bit weaker is probably preferable to not being able to move at all!!! #and i cant even get into see a doctor about any of this until october despite scheduling the appointment way back in fucking APRIL #because we live in an absolute nightmare of a healthcare system #and if i get told by one more medical professional that i should stretch and workout more i think im not legally liable for ripping #their fucking heads off #newsflash!!! i do already workout on the days i can move my legs!!!!! #and shockingly #it isnt a common symptom of not working out to get crippling leg pain or else wed probably have a lot more people needing wheelchairs #or getting told to eat healthier #i do eat healthily bit fuck you if i have to put up with chronic pain i should at least be entitled to eating food i like #oh maybe if you only eat uncooked broccoli and work out twenty three hours a day you might have the privelege of maybe improving your legs #obviously since i didnt have the good sense to be born able bodied