#and don't expect me to still be your agony aunt whenever it's convenient for ya✌️

[notajoinerofthings]

for lent i'm also giving up wasting emotional energy on people who have shown me time and time again that i'm not a priority for them.

#and you know what #i might not like myself that much a lot of the time #but at this point in my life i do care about myself enough to say that i do in fact deserve that people who (allegedly) #care about me also show me that. and behave in a way that matches their words #and if they don't or don't want to. well. downgrade to acquaintance it is. don't expect me to open up to you ever again #and don't expect me to still be your agony aunt whenever it's convenient for ya✌️ #ugh but it's such a fine line to walk esp when everyone in this scenario is somewhat neurodivergent #i know people are depressed and anxious and exhausted and overworked and burned out. and i do understand the urge to self-isolate #trust me i do. but it also hurts to see that they usually still find the time and energy to interact with other people. never with me. #and i'm sure there are valid reasons for that. and maybe i should be more understanding. but it also just hurts #and it triggers a lot of insecurities (maybe i'm overall just a draining person and not fun to be around blablabla) #and i know that's mostly a me problem but also friends should not make me feel that way #personal #delete later