#and etoiles at one point just said ‘oh my god i know you know baghera !!! please !!!!’ it was a very validating moment for french cubito

[ahalliance]

qsmp francophone cubitos and their dynamic drive me wild, they all know they’re mutually lying and obscuring the truth to one another, they all know they’re keeping each other at arm’s distance, they all know they’re not as open as they once were when it was just them and the aftermath of a plane crash, but the love is still there. the worry and the concern. they pry information out of one another in supposedly subtle ways that really just convey how much they still care about each other. what’s your stance on the federation. how’s your code arm doing. even if in the end you don’t turn to me, please call out to someone. maybe looking out for yourself is looking out for others as well. i don’t know you anymore but i will protect the unknown anyway

#qsmp #qsmp french #jay rambles #i need to go sleep . said i’d go to sleep ages ago . rotating them in my mind anw . fawk #it’s like. they KNOW they’re not being frank with one another. and it’s almost a game they play #i ask you this question and you know what i mean . but i will not say it outright . #for how long can we dance around the topic until one of us spills the obvious out into the open air #<- etoiles broke first btw lmao . and he and baghera went right back to pretending like neither of them knew any better too #insane of them . fuck #(for context it was about bbh and ron . both him and baghz were prodding at each other trying to gauge how much the other knew #and etoiles at one point just said ‘oh my god i know you know baghera !!! please !!!!’ it was a very validating moment for french cubito #enjoyers . right until they went back to pretending nothing had happened . win) #shoutout to like two months ago when etoiles said smth along the lines of how baghera isn’t telling him everything bc she doesn’t trust him #i will explode and explode and explode #antoine’s whole Thing early on about being distrustful and wary of others and how it hurt that he wasn’t always told everything anymore #a slow unraveling of the status quo that you don’t even realised has happened until you look around you

[goingferalapparently]

i think its interesting that q!jaiden has a tendency to eavesdrop/spy on people

i think its even more interesting that it didn't start like that - that it was developed after she started doing the cucurucho tasks. or maybe after bobby's death. one of them.

i dont think i would have noticed it as a pattern at first.

eavesdropping q!bbh and q!baghera's conversation on the second day of tasks made sense, you know? because they were definitely intentionally not saying this in front of her. and it was kind of justified at that point.

(my question about that is that pomme definitely saw her, so i just want to know whether pomme told q!baghera about it)

and then q!cellbit + q!roier's wedding was just. a lot of spying and eavesdropping on people. q!quackity + q!slime's conversation (about tnt??), q!slime trying to proposition q!roier (????? im not even sure whats happening there), q!quackity following cucurucho off to the train station...

(and all of those made sense, you know, because interrupting someone's conversation is not something people usually want to do, and q!slime and q!quackity were being sus as hell then)

but now ive (finally) hit the stream with the final presidential debate and its after the debate and she's crouching above the pit (??) that q!cellbit + q!roier (+ richarlyson) are in, ducking in and out of the edge to ensure she stays out of sight of the trio down there...

(im not 100% on what's going on there but it sounds like they're teasing each other and talking about family?)

and, see, where eavesdropping those other conversations made some semblance of sense (information she's been intentionally excluded from, not wanting to let people know that she's suspicious of them), this one is q!roier and q!cellbit. two of (at the point, three) people she invited to bobby fields, of all places.

(c'mon. bobby fields. it's The Friendship Step for q!jaiden. its the "i trust you and i trust you when you said you trust me")

and then, as they head up, she sprints away and pretends she was just. in the trees heading towards them. she does say she doesn't want to interrupt them, which is fair, but-

see. the thing is. noticing they were busy talking and not wanting to interrupt is reasonable. it makes complete sense! but eavesdropping during that is. well.

i think shes maybe a little wary of what people think about her and what they're hiding from her now - even the people that are probably closest to her. i think that's a little sad.

anyway. after that, she stumbles across q!bbh and q!etoiles talking and immediately hides behind a tree to eavesdrop. she doesn't listen to the end, but listens enough to get the gist of what they're talking about before leaving.

and then after that!!

(if you cant tell, im essentially live-reacting)

after that she meets q!antoine and, without hesitation, lies about where she stays. which is a 100% fair because bobby fields is most definitely a special place and i don't think i've ever seen antoine from her pov before this and one could definitely count how many people she's invited to bobby fields before this, but!!!

(oh my god she got hit with the "oh why are you hosting the final debate? is it because ur the connection to cucurucho?" AAAAAAA i should verbalise my thoughts ab the suspicions towards her in another post some day)

anyway.

all this to say, i think q!jaiden has trust issues and i think its a little sad.

#ramblings #qsmp #qsmp jaiden #sun qsmp posting