#and his mum hesitates before giving in but still says if they're late then neil'll be mad

[biillys]

something about when el went into void and found billy, she saw him on the beach surrounded by sunshine and love and truly fucking actually happy. something about how when she turned around and saw the storm, she put her hands out and felt the ash falling from the sky, and then saw neil abusing billy and abusing his wife. something about how even in the monstrous world from another entire dimension, neil's still the fucking monster in the story

#idk how the upsidedown and the void and possession work and at this point i dont fucking care #actually something about how she said she saw a someone pretty and then saw a boy #and didnt even click it could be billy until she heard his name get called out #like i guess she wouldn't know what he looked like as a kid and all that #but like.... they knew billy was possessed by this stage like? #and when she was like 'im at the beach' and lucas was like '??? hawkins has no beaches???' #max was like 'tell us what else u see' so pretty sure she was picking up what was getting thrown down #whatever none if this matters!!! i was just clipping up that scene for gifs today and decided to not mute it for once #and was like oh this is actually like genuinely fucking sad #like????? the fact billys hiding out in his memories??? except he cant actually live in just his happiest memory #cos even in his happiest memory #he asks to stay at the beach just a little longer #and his mum hesitates before giving in but still says if they're late then neil'll be mad #also the fact even his happiest memory is still surrounded by some of his most heart wrenching memories #like he can't remember the good without the bad #like his mind physically cant think about the one day on the beach were he caught a 7 foot wave #without remembering the fact that his mum fucking left #cant do this rn sorry guys im fucking emo #m #text