#and im also aware thay regardless of how many followers i have not all of you will see/like/comment/reblog my stuff

[yerdad]

Hi! Know I've been inactive for a bit and that probably isn't gonna change! I have other stuff to say but it'll be in the tags lol

#so im hesitant to say what i wanna say cause i dont wanna be perceived as ungrateful but like #i really wish my non fandom stuff got more attention/love #it sucks cause i know most of you followed me for Undertale/underswap art and junk so it only makes sense that #my more personal art wouldnt be treated in the same way #and im also aware thay regardless of how many followers i have not all of you will see/like/comment/reblog my stuff #and it bothers me that i care so much because i know the culture of social media doesnt cater towards the art community very well #even though art is so so popular #the creators of said art and content just dont get treated in the same way their creations do #and thats really disheartening cause ir feels like i have to constantly improve and one up myself in order to get people attention #like for so many this is their livelihood and to see it so dependant on algorithms is incredibly demoralizing #i dont know #this kinda feels like the only route for me right now since im still in highschool- this feels like the only way ill create connections atm #anyway im only saying this cause i wanna know if anyone else feels similarly? like i feel like such a jackass for thinking all this stuff #but i wanna know if its reasonable line of thinking yknow #thats why i havent been posting very much either. i just hate working so hard on something and feeling so proud and then it feels like #its being ignored? idk... #im aware this sounds whiny #i wont try to excuse it #if any of my art moots see this tell me if youve had similar experiences #since i feel bad ill try to post the sketches ive been doing since school started #my style has changed a bit so maybe some of you would be interested in seeing how ive improved? lolol #im done talking now. have a good one