#and im happy that i wasn't interned in a hospital. or put on heavy meds

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Vent-ish?

#its kinda sad how something that happened YEARS ago still messes with my life #and writing it down helps me realize lots of stuff. and i think that has helped a lot but it is still hurtful to remember #and even apart from the acts themselves. all the emotions and feelings that followed left me tired #im glad it wasn't as bad as what happens to other people. but it still happened when it never should have #and im happy that i wasn't interned in a hospital. or put on heavy meds #but still those times completely fucked up my perception of time and the ways i should act around people #i still constantly forget if yesterday was a week or a month ago #sometimes stuff gets bad and a whole week looks like an everlasting second and it hurts so bad #it gets me mad cause now it doesn't affect only me #i have to take care of my cat cause no one else will. and i have to take care of myself cause no one else will #and i have to remember to interact with people i like or i wont have anyone in my life #it's really better than it was back then #but i still have a long way to go and sometimes it looks impossible #venting post #vent #cosillas de mi vida #lukkas rambling nonsense