#and im supposed yo go see hamilton sunday as a bday gift with my mother which like

[soldier-poet-king]

What to do when you want to *** but you're "not supposed to" drink yourself silly BC it's 11am, and also you can't leave your room without running into family and also you are useless and pointless and can't do anything right and that's just. How it's gonna be forever.

#franposting #ignore me. its just #oh it sure is a day #this was supposed to be a good long weekend #i really just want to be unconscious for the entirety of it and then also forever after permanently #i cannot spend the whole weekend drunk but i want to #and im supposed yo go see hamilton sunday as a bday gift with my mother which like #1 seeing it w my mother hell. shes gonns fuckin flipm she doesnt know abt the cheating plotline #and in my fucked family??? god i shkuld jjust kms #2 even if i wasnt going with her im just. depressed and useless and want to do notbing but lie in a hole and wait to die #bc i cant escape myself #anyway its just :) #physically i am fine pls dont worry #im just. well. u know #a piece kf shit. AND failed my highway test again. which is 90$ a pop. bc i cant do basic child shit #or bc everyone in the goddam city drives so bad and i dont even WANT TO USE THE HIGHWAYS #and the ttc sucks ass and i cant afford to live somewhere where u can just use transit (ie. parts of europe. parts of asia) #anyway!!! just.!!!! wow i hate it