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#and it’s. I said this to topsy the other day but it approaches caricature
exopelagic
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6 months
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one day I’ll stop vagueposting abt The Guy but that day is not today
#combination of him being weird again today and finding the notes I wrote when it was happening
#i went and sat with our mutual friend before a meeting earlier which was fine
#and then when I leave I see him on the other side of this divider thing just out the corner of my eye
#so he was definitely avoiding me! I now have confirmation bc he’d been with other friend during the class before
#and if it was anyone else I know for sure he would’ve said hi to her
#banking on plausible deniability bc I walked pretty quick and didn’t turn around it’s not unreasonable to assume I didn’t see him
#but I KNOW those two talked abt it afterwards
#if she brings it up tonight in front of everyone I’m going to kill her <3
#anyway I found the notes I’d written out for myself back then bc I was having trouble sorting through my thoughts more than usual
#and they helped me organise what I was thinking and come to some kinda resolution on my own bc he was giving me nothing <3
#and it’s. I said this to topsy the other day but it approaches caricature
#I’d forgotten how concretely bad it was
#like he turned me into his science experiment bc he was scared of liking someone
#(specifically a guy but that’s a dimension we’re not getting into that)
#I’d forgotten abt how he was testing me constantly in like. not an overt way
#but he clearly either thought he was way better at subtlety than he was or he severely underestimated me. probably both
#and despite me going a little insane over him I was in fact being mostly sane! I had some level of emotional maturity going on there!
#I was just worried abt everything but i at least knew what the fuck I was feeling and had resolved to just be open about it all and I did it
#there is genuinely a bit in there abt how I wanted to apologise for how I would sometimes get distracted when he was talking bc he was cute
#I wanted to apologise abt being awkward being thrown in unexpectedly to meet everyone he’d ever talked to
#where I wrote abt how I’m learning from my mistakes and I know what the problem was now
#dude???? you have anxiety???? this is how that works????
#these are not the worst examples I just cba to dig back through that note it’s so long
#anyway mr guy you are annoying as fuck pls get your shit together
#this was all meant to be over if he could like maybe make up his mind on following me vs avoiding me that’d be great <3
#luke.txt
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