#and low and behold we effectively had THE EXACT SAME ARGUMENT today a year later

[hella1975]

my mum will say the nastiest rottenest things to me and then she’ll calm down and be like ‘sorry 😝’ and ill move it on bc it’s not worth getting her angry again but inside im like babygirl maybe u have some anger issues maybe

#at one point she was like ‘do you think im mean?’ and I was MAD mad at this point and both of us mad is never good #bc we’re just trying to hurt each other for no other reason than to know we’ve got through to the other #so I was like ‘YES I think you’re mean’ ‘but only when I’m angry’ ‘that doesn’t justify it’ ‘but you agree only when I’m angry’ #and I didn’t know what she was getting at so I was like ‘yeah?’ #THIS BITCH GOES ‘huh I can live with that’ LMAO??? #anyway I moved out of my uni room today and a year ago when I moved IN me and my mum rowed the entire time #and it’s a real sore point for me bc it was her saying how cold I am and that she basically doesn’t like how I’m turning out #(direct quote) #and me saying how her temper ruins everything and she can’t see sense #and low and behold we effectively had THE EXACT SAME ARGUMENT today a year later #‘your lack of empathy astounds me. I despair of you’ (that’s a new one. 11/10 word choice she didn’t need to go so hard with that) #and me going back with ‘I hate you when your angry’ and very dangerously close to ‘your just like your mother’ territory #shits and giggles! #I’ve just had a nap bc we’ve been up since 4am and she came upstairs #and I fully pretended to be asleep bc I know that means she’s come to apologise #which means she’s actually taken a second to BREATHE and stop being so fucking angry #and low and behold it returns all logic and critical thinking skills to her #and I’ll have to forgive her because I do genuinely hate her when she’s angry #and it’s just not worth holding onto so I’ll take an out if she gives it me #but it’s soooo frustrating and unnecessarily upsetting for BOTH of us #and I hate that we still fucking do this and I’ve got a whole summer of it and I can’t just go back to uni now and yeah #live love etc #delete later #don’t reblog