#and mentioned that if i show any symptoms of psychosis she couldnt ethically allow me to be around the group????

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i start intensive outpatient therapy on tuesday and i could not be more upset lmao. i know its going to be good for me overall but i cant think of something i want to do less than that sjshdhdh. ALSO it runs all the way up until my birthday with my birthday being my last day (unless i get discharged early) which is just.... no good.

#its 3 hours a day 4x a week #for four weeks #😭 #im going to krill myself fr i dont wanna goooooo #what do you mean i have to go sit with strangers almost every day and leave my house..... #the intake nurse also said a lot of shit about my psychosis that makes me nervous #like implying that bpd cant cause psychosis and that their program usually prohibits ppl w psychosis #and mentioned that if i show any symptoms of psychosis she couldnt ethically allow me to be around the group???? #so id either be discharged or warded against my consent depending on symptoms #and she kept. mentioning that if i showed ANY SIGNS she would ward me or kick me out like #made comments to that degree like 3 times #where im like 🤨 #maam let me be insane. let me cook please my psychotic nature is the least of my issues sjshdhdhd #anyways im not a happy camper about this but. #on a positive note my friends got a minecraft realm thanks to our one friend being VERY GENEROUS and buying us one??! #and so ive spent like. many days now just playing minecraft with everyone on vc for hours and its so funnnnn #no therapy just minecraft 😠 #my post