#and tho yes im glad w what i have im still ambitious enough to want more

[astrxealis]

ngl i lowkey kinda ehh rbing ask games myself now bcs i rmbr the last few times i have, literally no one ever sends in an ask 😭💔 (dw abt it tho aaa no pressure n all ofc and i don't rlly mind)

#IRHWIWHDK EXCEPT FOR MY VERY LAST ONE ON MY SB ... to that one anon who answered tysm #tbh idrm if its just 1 bcs that alrdy makes me vv happy genuinely but if its just BOOM a 0 it just makes me go into >< #n then i need time to fix my thinking again n time to recharge n all that ... n then its a cycle ... #tho ig im just used to this >< itll stop making me sad when i grt more n more used to it OFHEIWHQIQHDODBWODJ HELP #it's kinda sad and good i have an ability to seemingly let go of things rlly quickly but at the same time #i never really truly let go of most things :') they end up sticking #aka my brain KNOWS but my heart is just too stubborn and refuses to rlly. solve yeah #oops a little vent help ODHWUQHWIDHIS #ill grt over this in like a minute dw 💪🏼 but yeah like i said thats both good and bad ... tho at this point ive been doing it forever #so idk how to fix it TvT #(can you tell im an akechi kinnie haha. or sumi kinnie. both tbh) #i need an akira of my own ... aaaaaaa #tw vent #cw vent #also uhhh tbh idrm !! no pressure to send in asks or anything or wtvr #just is kinda a blow to the mental stability i try to hold up when i look forward to smth n then boom nothing at all #which is kinda . nice ig bcs i truly do appreciate and have rgratitude for all that i have #and tho yes im glad w what i have im still ambitious enough to want more #tho since im still pretty young obvs my stability isnt too good ...... #i feel like im putting a lot on myself esp bcs im still likely too young for all this fiehdobwkdns #i let go and forgive and things heal in time and i try to be mature and not be close minded and try to be as consierate as i can be #but yeah one day i'm definitely going to actually. Break #i mean that happens in outbursts every now and then but idk man i know how i am is kind of an outer shell and a bit. unhealthy #but idk wtf wld be the alternative ... even if it kind of feels like at tomes that everything abt me is fabricated in a sense >< #uAAGGHHH JUST IGNORE THIS ALL RIWIWUOEJ IDK WHAT IM TALKING ABT ANYMORE #going back to my post idk man bcs #whenever others r like hey pls give me asks !! pls yeah !! n all that #i psrticipate and try to help n i think its perfectly okay for them to do that #but then for me i just Cannot :') working on that tho #delete later