#and thrn we come full circle to why i cant ask for help

[roachemoji]

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#bo posting #vent #im self isolating #but i think i want to be alone #but i also dont #but the kind of company i want i cant have #intrusive thoughts about ny relationships are getting overwhelmingly #in too afraid to ask for anything #feels like if i do ill make things worse somehow #like im being a bad or inconsiderate person #but not avoiding things also makes me bad and inconsiderate #that im being a coward and should just deal with whatever outcome. even ifvits negative and nothing changes or gets done #and if i upset people it is my fault. and avoiding it is only prolonging that. ill upset someone no matter what i do #i just dont feel safe being a person with needs and emotions that affect others #that feels like it sounds sarcastic but im anxious and sad nd i dont understand how to help myself or what to do #and thrn we come full circle to why i cant ask for help