#and when I spent $20 on jukebox credits he was like you can’t play xyz here

[deancoded-deangirl]

so like my job is opening shops right and they send two of us at a time and my coworker was like “I’m not driving; Jackie you’re driving” and I was like “okayyyy but I get to pick the music” because every other opening I’ve done, my music gets shot down like we don’t even play any songs i like, and he was like, “if you do, I’m not talking to you” and so of course i was a little hurt by that and didn’t say anything and just put my head down at work and he comes up to me and is like “you know I was kidding right” and like. yeah I guess but I doubt it. i think he just felt bad and so I was like omg it’s not that serious idc

#but actually I do care because I’m the youngest on the team by ten years #so all of my ideas are shot down and they’re all friends but I’m not #nothing I like is anything they’d even be interested in #so anyway I was like Jesus it’s not that serious omg #but now I’m in a bathroom stall trying not to cry because for some reason that really hurt my feelings lmaoooo #personal #my bosses like me I guess but they are always on me about not being social #every perfomance review is asking if there’s anyone I bonded with #like. they all have their own little group chat and that’s fine bc I don’t like some of them #but you want me to bond with people who actively exclude me. I’ll be professional but I’m not trying that #like what. i have to start pretending to be interested in things and I can’t be myself #and openings are fun! with some people #but i can’t do a single thing I want #this same coworker made me go to a bar to watch a basketball game w him #they only give us one rental #he would not compromise #and when I spent $20 on jukebox credits he was like you can’t play xyz here #like. idk. #anna delvey boice: did someone hurt your little baby feelings