#and yes I know it wasn’t technically necessary thank u mag 160 you sick bastard

[happy-little-doorbell]

hm… no I don’t think Gertrude was feeling cold and uncaring when she sacrificed Michael. I don’t think she just dusted her hands off and walked away. I think she was used to risky plans and close calls, even used to an occasional casualty, but her blood ran cold when she realized she was choosing to send one to their death. not collateral damage — a sacrifice.

and I think she tried to be as numb as possible, calculating, deciding, even as she knew deep down that only one of her assistants would walk straight into hell on her word.

and I think she found him a bit annoying before that. the jaded resent the naive — it isn’t fair, but it’s true. but by the time he brought her tea the next day, in her mind, he was already dead. everyone looks better dead. optimism, trust, loyalty all become virtues where they were once liabilities.

I don’t think she didn’t feel the gravity of her choice. I think she did it anyway.

and she did not hesitate.

#the concept of necessary sacrifice makes me a little bite bite scratch bite #how do you choose one person to die for the safety of the world? #but that’s not the right question #how do you *not* make that choice? how do you let the world die? #be hated and reviled by everyone for your betrayal #but they wouldn’t be around to hate you if you hadn’t done it #augh #and yes I know it wasn’t technically necessary thank u mag 160 you sick bastard #but at the time she wouldn’t have known that #yes I’m a Michael stan and a Gertrude apologist. we exist. #fuck it maintagging #tma #michael distortion #michael shelley #gertrude robinson