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#anyways tonight was brutal lol and i feel the clock moving ahead rapidly but i am just going to make my silly little art instead of worrying
piplupod
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ignore this i just need to be insane for a second
#life gets soooooo much easier when u decide u are on a clock thats running out and theres an end to it
#like i can just fucking vibe now and not care bc theres an end in sight
#im just running the clock out and having a good time as much as possible while the clocks still running
#and then! i get to be done! and leave! when things get too intolerable! i can just be done and not deal w it anymore!
#incredibly freeing! psychologists are terrified of me!
#literally just. okay well I'll just live off the savings i have (very lucky i accumulated those) and then-
#-either they run out or shit gets too fucked up for me to handle and i can just off myself then. thank fucking god
#living in a way where u are just running out ur rapidly ticking clock is just so fucking freeing
#things dont matter anymore and i can finally fucking chill a little bit
#I've been living this way for a couple months and damn I've been going thru it sure but theres an exit door for me to use now
#and thats making it SO much easier to cope. i have a limited amount of time and i can choose to end the clock whenever. thank god
#just waiting it out and vibing in the meantime
#anyways tonight was brutal lol and i feel the clock moving ahead rapidly but i am just going to make my silly little art instead of worrying
#no need to worry bc theres no future to consider!! if things get too hard i can just leave! extremely freeing!
#dont have to worry abt escaping or finances or anything lmao its all unnecessary now
#this is probably unhealthy (i mean it definitely is) but i feel like i can deal w things so much better
#family can say whatever they want now bc if i ever decide its too much i can just be done
#and magically! my tolerance levels have risen! hurray! i can tolerate so much more bc i know it doesnt matter!
#okay im done im done. things are so bad lol but at least i have an way out at the ready and no more apprehension abt it
#me and death become besties era
#she is my silly rabbit she is my rock she'll be there to catch me when i collapse djdjdkdl
#I'll delete this later but i just need to be stupid a bit rn bc otherwise im going to do smth so much worse
#everything is building and building and i am handling it the best i can! this is my best!
#suicide tw
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