#as for him himself I imagine that being a collasol salmon comes with. a lot of complicated feelings for some

[chisatowo]

I need 2 stop making salmonid ocs I cannot design all these fuckers I need 2 design the many many characters from my actual stories and aus that need designed and yet all I wanna do is make more emo fish ppl help-

#rat rambles #oc posting #splat posting #thinking abt valiant's ex friend who was the person that she got annoyed with and left because of #he was smth of a found brother to her as they largy stuck together during their childhoods and as such initially both physically developed #in similar ways with him beimg slightly more akin to your average adult smallfry #but during his late teens he started growing again and most assumed he was just a late bloomer #but as he was in his early 20s approaching mid 20s and he was still going he started realising that it was probably. not gonna stop. #he never ended up gettimg the chance to tell valient tho before she left #valiant was not necesarily an outcast but she was considered hard to connect to and she herself was very secretive around most #she had big ambitions that she wanted to keep a secret as to not have her ideas stolen but also constantly longed to enthuse abt her genius #so her one friend was the person shed usually go off too and he usually tried his best to listen and engage as best he could but he wasnt. #the best at it. and that only got worse as the looming prospect of being possibly seperated from everyone he knows and loves started to get #to him and since he didnt tell anyone valiant assumed he didnt care abt or stopped believing in her ideas which hurt and frustrated her #after one particular conversation where at some point he straight up told her that he wasnt up for talking she took it personally and left #nowadays she looks back on that with a lot of regret since in hindsight she can tell that he was probably going through some shit #she feels like its too late to go back or even reach out tho since its been over 20 years at this point #she doesnt know that even if she did he wouldnt be there :( #as for him himself I imagine that being a collasol salmon comes with. a lot of complicated feelings for some #its a deeply honored and even celebrated roll and theyre very well cared for but at the same time it kind of requires being much more #isolated than your typical salmonid even if they have a handful of caretakers with them most of the time #they usually have to be moved out to the deeper parts of the ocean too meaning that its difficult for family and friends to visit sometimes #plus there is this level of envy thay exists in some salmon around the titans sometimes which for my big boys case does fuck with him #he is a very anxious person who tends to overthink things and boy howdy does every last element of all of this not help #it especially doesnt help that his best friend left before he could even say goodbye and he hasnt heard from or even of her since :( #his crew ends up getting picked off by predators while escorting him to a nearby border for a grooming session leaving him alone and lost #in the depths of the ocean with little tools to navigate #he knows that death is not supposed to be a scary thing for him but he is so scared in this moment #not because of death itself but much more so him desperately not wanting to die alone #he was supposed to be celebrated. it was supposed to be a joyous event. his family was supposed to be there. he'll never see valiant again