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snowylacie · 5 years

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1, 12, 17, 20, 21, 26, 30, 36, 37, 45, 46 (also hello

1: How long have you been in the fandom?

uhmm i’m actually not sure…? i’ve only been on tmbl for a bit more than 3 years (although i stalked the PH tmbl fandom since years before i created my acc, every month after a release came here to scream at the new edits ;_;) but when the manga was still running i used to be active in the PH fandom of other sites that no longer exist nowadays. i took various breaks from said fandoms too because the community per se wasn’t that important to me back the day so uhhh i’ve been on and off but kinda for a reasonable amount of time we could say? i’ve never been as close to any kind of ph fandom as i’m now, i always kept some distance12: Headcanons I have?ADA AND SHARON BECAME BEST FRIENDS. they had so much in common and personality-wise and inner strength as well!!! they would make such a great match ;__;

17: Saddest character death in my opinion?jack’s…. also oswald’s…. also the twins and oz disappearing…. FANG… that was one big betrayal… ;;;;but the one that probably impacted me most was elliot. when he died i was younger and by then he was my fav character sharing the #1 spot with lacie’s tomb and the surrounding mystery. i refused to acknowledge his death when it first happened, but because the manga was monthly i (and all elliot fans lbr) was anxiously clinging onto hope and waiting for the following month wishing that it was just a scare. so when there were no more doubts that he was as dead as one can be it felt like he died for a second time :’) i mourned him so much oh dear..

20: Opinion on the Baskervilles?i LOVE them!!! they have been my favorite house since the minute one and their supremacy in my heart has never wavered. i joined for the mystery, secrets and the dark vibes and i stayed because they delivered ;w; i do wish we had known more things about each member and of the history of the house though.. many of my favorite characters are baskervilles so this also added up, although it is honestly less relevant. their role was right up my alley and they have a lot of, eh, charisma imo?

21: Who would I cosplay as?i don’t think i’d ever cosplay because i don’t have the confidence… but if i ever did i’m sure i would choose one of my dear girls

26: Alice or Alyss?YOU CAN’T DO THAT TO ME ;;;;;; umm umm you see, i love both them SO MUCH and… quite equally ;;; i don’t want to have to choose…

but.. if i really had to say, i’ve got some bias toward……… alyss :’) maybe a 1% stronger bias than with alice but it’s still here…. since i’m here and to compensate alice, let me ramble about things i love about her!! *w* first and foremost i admire A LOT alice’s strength of spirit and the way she’s able to take difficult decisions with resolution!! giving up is not on her vocabulary and she never lets herself wallow in sadness or gloominess for a long time. she ALWAYS!! gets back on her feet and will try to keep others’ spirits high as well (in her pretty particular ways). i love her passion and courage, she’s one of the most gryffindor characters i’ve ever seen ;;; her heart is just so big and while she can be rash she has no malice ;v; when gilbert apologised to her for the things he told her in the past and she said she didn’t mind because the gilbert who mattered to her was the current one… look…. i was and i still am moved beyond words, this moment meant so much to me ;;;; i also truly value that alyss is the first one listed in her dearests list ;;;; she’s so caring and dedicated to her loved ones ;;;w;;;

30: If I could make two characters interact more, who would they be?

*rolls up sleeves* ada and oz!!!! my beloved siblings… i’ve been wishing for it for a long time but ever since someone made that post about ada having lost all her family + person she loved in a few days that i think about it even more often and with more desperation ;A; they loved each other so much…. THE RELATIONSHIP CHART SAID THEY FELT DEEP AFFECTION FOR EACH OTHER ;;;;A;;;; alyss and alice!!! my beloved twins who loved each other a lot and yet…? ;;; alyss and oz!!! oz and lacie!!!! oswald and lacie!!! alyss-alice-oswald!!! why did alyss dislike oswald? and i sure wish the twins had been able to meet their mom ;;also ada and sharon!!! i think we actually haven’t seen them interact at all but they for sure know about each other if only because they’re from the most powerful dukedoms…?fang-lily-doug-lottie!!! they are an incredible family, i love them so much and i loved every little interaction they had and the way they were so supportive of each other and all took care of lily ;;;;;

oz, elliot and leo as the promising friendly trio they were about to become *tea party flashbacks* ;_;

and this is very self-indulgent BUT my one ph dream for years has been lacie and lottie meeting each other!!! it hadn’t been a long time since lacie died that lottie arrived at the mansion… we could have had it all ;____; and also i wish alyss and leo had met!!! for some reason i think it’d be very interesting to see ;_;i have more more sure but now i’m unable to recall hhh ….watch me regretting not having added x or y the moment i send this

36: Favorite character backstory?

THE ALICES!!!! both alice and alyss omg… their story is full of ups and downs and they both suffered a lot and had to take harsh decisions… they didn’t get as much exposure maybe but in hindsight they had a real lot going onand also jack’s! it’s pretty simple in credible as in being the bastard son of a noble, but there was a twisted component about him from the get go that i just can’t help but be very drawn to it… i have a huge soft spot for young jack…and lily’s too ;w;

37: Least favorite character backstory?Hmmm i don’t really have one, but ifd i have to choose i suppose it’d be leo’s? not bad or anything but to me it’s one of the most average in the story

45: NOTP?i’m some ships i’m not too fond of but the only real notp is lacie and levi.since l’m an obvious jacie fan let me clarify that this is not a matter of shipping wars! i don’t think things like “it’s getting on the way of my ship”. actually i’m completely fine with how canon went and i think their relationship was interesting and without levi the twins wouldn’t exist either

i have a complicated relationship with levi, he’s my most disliked character although that’s not to say i hate him or i have particularly bitter feelings. more than anything, i have lots of mixed feelings regarding him and i’ve gone through many levi phases. the fact that the moment he appeared became my 3rd fav chara in ph is pretty indicative, imo. and he stayed in that spot for a long time, too.. but not even then did i ship him with lacie. i just don’t see the relationship this way from lacie’s side and her pov is the one that matters to me + she’s my favorite character so i can’t bring myself to pair her with someone i don’t have the same amount of love for, let alone one for whom i feel so complicated.

46: Favorite AU?MAGICAL GIRL LACIE!!!!! i wish mochijun had done an omake chapter or smth about it, it was too good??? those pages talking about that nonexistent anime are among my favs of side ph material, i’d give all my money to see more of it!! plus the pandora girls seemed to appear more and they pretty much have the monopoly of my ph top ;w; aaand also the ph gakuen? or how was it named? where the characters were in university, jack wore those horrible clothes (dungarees?) yet looked adorable & also wore one of the loveliest smiles mochijun ever drew on him and lacie looked graceful and wonderful as ever ada and sharon becoming best friends who lost so many peaple dear to them and maybe even living together. my sunshines… ;v;

#ask #yayy tysm for asking!!#i had a lot of fun with those #i'm so eager to talk about ph at any given time *v*#and sorry this comes so late #it's been almost a week but ;~; life is busy..#i won't have time to keep lengthy convos for a while so i'm happy i could do those ;v;#i'll also reply to the others asks asap!!! really sorry for the delay ;;

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strawberry-milktea · 6 years

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(1) I don't know if you've struggled with this before but have you ever wondered how you could use your talents in a career that would help others and do God's work? I'm at a difficult point in my life right now. I think what I'm best at is languages. I was raised bilingual in Spanish and English, and majored in Asian Studies with a concentration in Japanese language. I mostly use the first two languages (Spanish with my family, and English because I live in the USA).

(2) My dream was to get a job after graduation where I’d be able to use Japanese since I was super passionate about it. Things didn’t go as planned because I don’t live in an area with many Japanese speakers. I tried looking into things like internships outside my state and country, but then… some bad things happened. First, I had to undergo surgery for a condition I didn’t even know I had. It was a very scary experience, and I feel like a lot of my emotional problems stem from it. (3) Then, my grandma was diagnosed with breast cancer, and had to undergo two surgeries. She also has severe Alzheimer’s and can’t do many things on her own. I’m her main caretaker since my parents can’t give up their jobs, and I don’t work, so my mom puts me in charge of her while my parents are at work. A lot of other difficult things happened. I don’t have friends because everyone moved on, got jobs elsewhere, got married, etc. while I’m just at home the majority of the time.(4) I get debilitating panic attacks, and there have been times when I’ve not wanted to live anymore because I feel so sad and useless. I feel like at one point, people had high hopes for me, and then I disappointed everyone. It’s been about four years since I took my last Japanese class. Even though my online friends come to me for help with translating things like manga dialogue or Jpop lyrics, I don’t know if my Japanese is even good enough to use for something like a real job anymore. (5) Also, some medications I was put on to keep my health under control make me light-headed as a side effect, so I sometimes feel slower and more brain-foggy than I was when I was taking classes. I’ve lost confidence in my learning abilities compared to how fast I would learn stuff before. I feel like I’ve been so stagnant these past few years. And it’s hard when I don’t have a support system of friends. I love God. I put a lot of faith in God, I pray every day, and I know He cares about me. (6, last message) But I still feel lost. I haven’t had luck with finding a job, even part-time jobs that have nothing to do with Japanese. It’s hard. It’s just tough convincing myself that I haven’t messed up, and that there still might be hope for me. I’m sorry if I’m bothering you but I was wondering if maybe you could give me suggestions on how I could possibly start fixing myself so that I can be of more use to God. Also, prayers for me and my family would be appreciated. Thank you so much. —Hi there,You aren’t bothering me! I apologize for taking so long to respond to this. First thing I want to address in this message is you say it’s hard convincing yourself that you haven’t messed up.. Why do you feel your career going differently than planned is a result of you messing up? You couldn’t help that there were not any job opportunities in your area and that you needed surgery that set you back in terms of looking for jobs.. Generally speaking, being unemployed and searching in the job market is a tough spot for anyone to be in, regardless of which career it is. The job market has been difficult for quite sometime now.. I remember when I was between jobs, it was hard to just get an interview and a chance to prove myself, so the idea of actually getting the job can feel very discouraging nowadays. This isn’t your fault.. people who are qualified for jobs have difficulty finding them simply because the job market is saturated and there is competition. A lot of times, people know someone on the inside who puts a good word in for them and that’s how they get their foot in the door. You shouldn’t feel like it’s your fault that it’s been difficult to find work. Honestly, find comfort in the fact that you are certainly not alone in this struggle. I have definitely struggled with wondering how God could use me for His work in the career I went to college for. Like I mentioned above, there was a period of time I was out of work because the job I had been promised for after graduation fell through due to budget cuts. During the period when I was between jobs, there was a long stretch of time where I wasn’t getting any interviews and I fell into a very negative mindset. I was feeling angry with myself and completely discouraged, wanting to give up on the career I worked so many years for. The enemy was really doing a number on me during that time and I kept telling myself, “This is useless, I don’t even understand how He could use a career in healthcare to spiritually help people. I wasted all those years in college on something I can’t even find a job for and won’t even help people spiritually and give me chances to do His work.” But in His timing (and there was a good period of waiting I had to do), He opened the right doors for me and once He did, things fell into place effortlessly. I saw clearer how every door I tried to force open in my own will didn’t open because He had a reason. He wanted me a certain place in the time He set for it, and the ones I was trying to push for in my own power weren’t it. And in hindsight, I realized He was protecting me - because I later found out one of the places I had been interviewed for and thought was a serious possibility was a really unhealthy work environment that I would have been very unhappy in. Instead, when He opened the doors, I ended up in work environment where I could truly flourish and learn. I have coworkers who are caring and teach me what they know and in turn, I teach the people who come after me what I learn. I’ve built my confidence and became more independent in my job, in ways I never thought were possible because I trusted Him to do the work in me where I was unsure and scared. I came to realize that you don’t have to work in a church to be able to do His work. It brings me joy to show my coworkers love and help them when they need it. I know how much it means to me when people help me when I’m overwhelmed by a large workload or am facing something that is confusing to me, so I’m more than happy to return that favor. I hope when I show them that care and love coming from my heart, that they can see Christ’s love in me. I’ve learned that you can show Christ’s love by being there for people when they feel comfortable enough to open up to you during a quiet moment at work about something going on in their personal lives. I show love for the patients I’m playing a role in helping during their time of medical need by treating them as I would my own family. And I wouldn’t have ever thought ahead of time that it was possible at work, but He has opened opportunities for me to witness for Christ by sharing His Word with a coworker I befriended who opened up to me about emotional pains and regrets he has been dealing with for many years. I’ve written down quite a bit of scripture for him and even got to give him a Bible. This experience taught me that He has work for us in any setting, even settings we may think are the least likely.I understand that there are many factors that pose challenges for you in your situation, but always remember that all things are possible with Christ. Your mom has likely put you in charge of taking care of your grandmother since you are still out of work, but I am guessing that if you were to find a job, she would work with you to make arrangements so that you can start putting your career in motion? If you are concerned about your grandmother having proper care when you find a job, I would suggest to definitely talk with your mom about this. Regarding the panic attacks, I can only imagine how upsetting that must be to deal with, but it doesn’t mean you won’t be able to find and hold a job.. same applies to your loss of confidence in learning abilities. It’s very easy to be fearful that you can’t do it when you haven’t done something for a long time. I’ve been there, I know that scary feeling. But once you get into the routine of a new job, you will see it’s not as frightening as you think it is. Your confidence will grow with each passing day as you see yourself doing what you thought was impossible. Find peace in the fact that panic attacks and lack of confidence are not too big for our God to handle. Trust that He can and will carry you through this!I hope reading about my experience encourages you with the truth that God can and will provide opportunities at your future job for you to do His work.. even while you are waiting to find a job, you are still doing His work by taking care of your grandmother. Taking care of a sick person is something that requires a lot of dedication, love, and sacrifice. It’s not an easy job and is definitely not something that everyone is cut out for. It’s honestly very admirable that you are able to do this! So don’t lose sight of that.I will pray for you and your family.. Don’t lose hope and seek Him for guidance as to what steps you should take next. I hope this has been helpful to you and if there’s anything else you want to talk about, please feel free to message me!

#God #asks #anon #work #God's work #confidence #anxiety

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mahouproject-one · 5 years

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though i regret using my own heart as a sheath | Miyu | MM Trial (re: Itona, Reiko, Tsuku)

Miyu hadn’t gotten along with Reiko for almost the entire time they were here; in hindsight, it was understandable why a forger and a detective would be at odds even without the killing. Even now, they would likely never become friends. But they had some kind of mutual understanding and respect going on nowadays.

“I think that platonic bonds are still a significant factor that can’t be ignored. For what it’s worth, I’ve been looking at people with romantic involvements, too. But I’d like to avoid completely eliminating people that we don’t have unambiguous statements about. Otohiko did tell me her little one was hiding their role well from people they are fond of.”

Itona and Airi, meanwhile, were getting into a conversation about whether or not to spare the traitor. And then Airi said something that surprised Miyu.

“Wait, really? I thought you and Izumi-san...”

But Miyu only heard that, what, second- or third-hand? Given the context she could have easily misinterpreted the exact nature of their relationship. She shook her head and decided not to press the topic further – unless either of them gave her reason to.

“Takenaka. I understand. I… don’t imagine I’ll ever forgive this person. I’ll never forgive a lot of people who’ve done even less to wrong me, but this person who could have stopped this at any time had they simply spoken up? This person who could have saved the people they called friends…? I don’t think there’s anything that person can say that will make me stop hating them.

But… Eigawa-san is right. It was our fighting last trial that empowered Otohiko this much. It fuels dark magic. I’m not saying we need to all hold hands and harness the power of love. For most of us, that’d be empty words. What I’m saying is, we don’t need to make this worse. Look: No one had to die today to bring us here. Let’s keep it that way – if only because I refuse to make any more blood sacrifices.”

That wasn’t entirely true. Hypothetically speaking, she’d be willing to make one more sacrifice if it was for the greater good. But she couldn’t reconcile such a scenario with everything else that had been said about the nature of love and magic.

“I also… agree with Eigawa-san that we should be taking a close look at Genbu. Not necessarily for the same reasons she said – I get the impression many people in this class were lonely – but because I feel that… certain information is very much pointing that way. But I’m keeping an open mind here. I think Suzaku would be worth considering, too. Seiryuu… maybe. I can’t write you all off, but there’s less bite to that theory.”

Tsukuyomi was asking for clarification about a certain piece of (mis)information Miyu had been a major player in spreading. Her head dipped slightly as she addressed him, not wanting to meet anyone’s eyes for this part.

“Neither Otohiko nor her helper deliberately changed the shadows. The magic was out of their control. Otohiko confirmed that the cat shadows still held significance even back then. I believe that we… that I misinterpreted this information. I was wrong.”

And there it was: Miyu openly admitting she had made an error. A significant one, in fact, one that sent people on wild goose chases and threatened to tear apart their relationships. Miyu would have to own up to the consequences of this. She hoped that people had done enough independent investigations to come to their own conclusions, regardless of anything she had previously said.

“I went for the simplest answers: The tigers of Byakko, and the Feline Behaviorist. But there had always been other people with their own feline associations. People who claimed to relate to cats, or people who… otherwise cared for cats and their lives.”

Was that hesitation just now?

“…Cats, too, are carnivores. Cougars are carnivores. What I’m trying to get at is, we should consider people who have affinities with wildlife. And especially people who may have had an… encounter with dangerous animals while here.”

…She couldn’t keep avoiding this topic forever. If all she felt confident in doing was restating what everyone else had said thus far, so be it.

“We should go over what we’ve already said, to make sure we’re not missing something.”

Because information probably got lost in the Ohara Family Callout Posts.

“Eliminations first. According to the Labyrinth that several people have spoken of, the mastermind was still alive as of before the fourth motive. Myself and everyone who passed before me is clear. The Labyrinth also revealed that all of Byakko is clear as well. And finally, we know from the failed vote that it isn’t Miwa.

That leaves four people from Seiryuu, five from Suzaku, and five from Genbu that we cannot 100% eliminate.

Now to build a profile. The mastermind empathized with Otohiko and her loneliness. If they got away with this, they would try to create a world without suffering, you say? Otohiko suggested to me that the person would try to find some way to save us, too, even the dead. But there’s no guarantee we wouldn’t just be husks of ourselves.

Do you really think you can preserve us – our experiences, our memories, our feelings? Or would you be satisfied with whatever simplified creations you revive instead? Do you really want to do that to the people you love? Erase everything they are now and love a copy you’ll create to your own specifications!? She said you learned so much about humanity thanks to this killing game, so do you truly believe you know what we want…!?”

...Way to get sidetracked.

“...I’m sorry.”

She wasn’t sorry.

Miyu reached into her purse, slamming her sketchbook onto the rim of her pensieve and opening it up to a blank pages. She began writing.

“I’m going to state these in the simplest terms I can, and try not to embellish. We don’t have forever to keep beating around the bush. That we’ve even been given this long since the last trial is a ‘mercy’, but we can’t push our luck much longer.”

She began a bullet-point list, talking out each section.

“Crossroad shadows. They were first observed after the fourth trial, and took on solely feline forms. After the fifth trial, they took on the forms of a variety of animals. Carnivores, in general. There is a connection to the mastermind, though the exact link is still unclear.

The castle’s third floor. Several rooms up there have potential significance to them: The foyer, the art gallery, the natural sciences room, and the concert hall. One room pertains to them directly, and another room gained significance after an experience there. An important memory.

...If I may make an aside, I would like to discuss this further when we begin naming names.”

She needed to be very careful about when and how to present her notes on this. It would have been be very easy to make a red herring.

“Moving on. The mastermind could opt out of a motive, and has done so at least once. Any known inconsistencies in how a motive affected someone would be very helpful. Even just someone who was unusually chipper.

The mastermind is human, and a mahounashi. I’m including ghosts as suspects too, so I feel that’s irrelevant. This whole section is redundant in my point-of-view, but I’ll note it anyway.

The mastermind was told by Otohiko to make a sacrifice, but it was their choice to pick Ohara-sensei. Based on Kanamori’s testimony and answers from the Labyrinth, it seems that he was most likely killed by a kitchen knife, and… and his killer stood outside the whole time, presumably to block the closet door. That person stood there for twenty minutes to listen to him die.”

Not even Airi had managed that. Airi ran – Airi didn’t want to hear anyone die. It was Miyu herself who blocked the way out, wanting to block anyone from coming in.

“I’ve extracted a memory of his death, but since he couldn’t see his attacker, I don’t know if there’s much benefit in actually showing it. I also didn’t investigate the scene at all, so I could be missing vital information. And… Ohara-sensei, I apologize for being so insensitive towards your privacy while under the effects of Felix Felicis.”

Getting high on liquid gold seemed like a good idea at the time.

“Is there anything I’ve forgotten to say? The beast shadows, the motive immunity, the third-floor rooms… art, nature, music.”

Miyu decided to stop speaking then and wait to see who would bite onto this.

#mahouichi #chrono #chapter six #mm trial #miyu #submission

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