#as if that isn’t the norm and I’m not completely inept or disabled anyways

[mezmer]

I just realized here in the early morning hours that in a straight couple, you are indubitably getting some kind of power struggle where both the man and the woman assume, maybe even subconsciously, that they’re respectively going to be the winners. You could say This is probably why 99% of non-marriage relationships end and 50% of all marriages end in straight folk. It isn’t that most couples HaTe EaCh OtHeR, it is that they have some competition going on in their minds that there exists no rules to.

#I could go on but it is 6 in the morning #in me and hims case #I am paranoid he wants me to forget things so he can paint himself an image of being my compassionate helper #somebody who makes a sacrifice for their lover to help them #as if that isn’t the norm and I’m not completely inept or disabled anyways #in my case I am competing with him in what I believe is a fight to be more genuine somehow I feel he is a liar because I can’t possibly be #in love with somebody who does some of the things he does #all of it is evil and if I said all of this to him he would stare at me #like I have lobsters crawling out of my ears #it’s too late comma we have a child comma and we must microdose psilocybin to find our common ground and fuck on it