#asmera deserved so much better but also her getting a tragic death feels so gitting in a way

[dawnpours]

Really having Big Feels about my dnd campaign rn.

#caleb if you read tags pls know its 2h30 am and my brain is not cooperating #but like omg since our bard's death the vibes of the party completely changed #asmera deserved so much better but also her getting a tragic death feels so gitting in a way #heartwrenching in how random and undeserved it was #but also it really highlights just how merciless this campaign is #no one deserved a good ending more than her #apart maybe from izek my man did nothing wrong #i'm really terrified we won't get a hapoy ending #because i'm starting to realize just how attached I am to our characters and how thin our chances actually are #and ngl its fucking me up so bad #everytime my pc sees her brother it might be the last time and they both deserve to have each other #and she wants to kill the Abbot so bad to make sure nothing can ever happen to them again bit #it seems impossible #and I'm making myself SO SAD thinking about Izek #alone again #if rainer dies #same for Dhakil #at this point the rags are for caleb if u read them no one else will understand shit but i need to exteriorize bonjour #but fuck man how are we going to make it out alive the odds are so against us #i want them to be a codependent puddle and to make it out of there victorious because the alternative is just fucking horrible #i don't know how our bard's player made it through honestly #their new character is super cool but there is a distance and I hate it but also I want to honour the storyline #and not rush it #but fuck man #this is ridiculous its 2h30 am and I'm almost crying about my imaginary brother #sigh #though the people I play with make all this suffering worth it #cue hsm we're all in this together #alright im going to sleep and will reread this in the morning and feel ridiculous