#because LAST time i went in for the same interview i DIDNT wesr makeup

[justareallyboredfangirl]

my heels have been raw for a WEEK now from the flats i wore to my interview last week. i had to go out, get a decent looking outfit JUST for it, had to put on some makeup -i don’t wear makeup-, had to buy a cheap ass pair of dress shoes from walmart to go with it, couldn’t just show up in my old tennis shoes… only to get there and for all the guys i was up against to be wearing jeans and their tennis shoes like they just came from the gym- and MOST of them got the job. every single woman in there was dressed nice, hair done, modest yet professional clothes, PRESENTABLE. and almost every guy was dressed like they just came from a bar. idk.

they tell you not to have blue hair or visible tattoos or piercings “BeCaUsE nO oNe WiLl HiRe YoU!!” and so you never dye your hair like you want to, you dress nice, you put effort into your appearance for this one day, you wear uncomfortable shoes that shred your heels and you have to wear bandaids for the next week, you give your most thoughtful answers to the interview questions, and it still might not be enough. meanwhile Mr Burger Grease Stained Shirt McGee beside you in his beat up sketchers bullshitted all his answers and landed the job

#i shouldnt still be thinking about it. but i just had to change my bandaids AGAIN and my heels dont look like theyre getting better at all #theyre still raw #it was a group interview and the only other lady in there didnt get the job #only a couple guys out of thr entire pool for my time slot were dressed Nice #like not in their every day casual clothes. one guy wore a marble looking maroon suit jacket which i respect the hell out of #he got the job. #but almost everyone else was in casual wear. hell I was the only girl in pants!! business type pants but still #ALL the women were dressed up. only a few of us made it through #a lot more effort was put in on our part. and yet #idk. im not trying to articulate any specific point here. just kinda cant stop thinking #about how none of the guys are having to wear bandaids on their heels for a week #after their 4 hour interview process #i was only in the damn things for 4 hours. from start to the time i already had the job and drug tested it was only ~4 hours #just my life #vent #im not complaining that they got the job…its just the fact that they didnt put half the effort into looking presentable as we did yknow? #why did i have to put concealer on to be taken seriously. why couldnt i have gone in in my old tennis shoes and still gotten the job #because LAST time i went in for the same interview i DIDNT wesr makeup #and i DIDNT wear flats. i went in in my tennis shoes and formal-ish pants and a sweater and didnt get the job #im not saying how i dressed this time is what did get me the job…but i know that i put more effort into looking the part of an interviewee #this time and i did get the job. so idk. did it make a difference? it was the only thing i did different this time so i have to think it did #idk. i guess i just would like to see the same amount of effort put in. either that or dont make ME put in so much effort. #let me show up in MY casual wear and MY comfortable shoes. #idk. my heels hurt and its annoying