#because then my perfectionism and imposter syndrome and obsessive inner editor are all too tired to care

[fortes-fortuna-iogurtum]

what is this?? gurt attempting to write a fanfic that's lived in her mind for like 3 years?? the night after inventory at her store wrapped up when all she REALLY wants to go is sleep for a whole week????

#anyway I'm attempting to write a thing. maybe to use for one of my YearoftheOTP fics? or maybe not #it is such a mess so far. it starts and then promptly restarts and also switches POV at least once dfksjhsdkfjh #BUT I am WRITING!! and it is not agony to do so!! hurrah!! #I will confide in tumblr that the secret I have learned for my writing to come easily and without agony and much grief in every sentence #is to be terrifically tired first #because then my perfectionism and imposter syndrome and obsessive inner editor are all too tired to care #and the writing gremlin is free to wreak havoc all over a shiny new word document #unfortunately it's not a very sustainable technique and I cannot use it regularly #and it produces writing that #while written quickly and freely and without much trouble #has to be HEAVILY edited before it makes ANY kind of sense #but that's actually ok bc the first draft needs only to exist and that is all #so I've got probably about 1/2-3/4 of this random pointless oneshot written up tonight and mayyybe I'll be able to finish it and edit it #and then share it with the 2 of y'all who will actually care enough and have the fandom context to read it X'D #gurt says stuff #writing woes #without the woes this time!