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[itsbinghebitch]

(with many thanks to @agendratum​ for trying to teach me to make gifs; it didn’t happen but the intention is all that matters)

#moonlight chicken #jimwen #mix sahaphap #earth pirapat #earthmix #bl.txt

[jesscmccrees]

am i allowed bragging rights if i beat captain flynt on the first try having never played a borderlands before

#i mean i was playing the easiest character but i was like worm? #bl.txt #matt.txt

[poppypost]

@ you know who you are

hey i doubt you even look at my tumblr anymore but if you do please talk to me. lol no this isnt some stunt this is literally liscensed therapists have asked me to talk with you about this and even my mom says i need closure. so if you can will you please. thx.

B

#A #bl.txt #i texted your sister (idk if she saw though) #and i sent an ask #just please

[itsbinghebitch]

and ok let me go insane for jojo & co's writing here for a second, but one thing i am obsessed with is the two matching flashbacks between ray and top (ray losing his mom because of alcoholism paralleled with top getting ptsd from almost dying in a fire). and that's one thing i want EVERYONE to start talking about. because while on the whole we're all very familiar with the trauma-induced alcoholism narrative, we don't talk nearly enough about people who engage in promiscuous sex and use of sex as a form of escaping trauma. and the fact that that is (at least in my personal experience) a very male coping mechanism. idk it just floored me because i don't think i've ever watched a show that engages with that so explicitly.

#ofts #only friends the series #bl.txt #and that's why you let actual queer men write about queer men folks

[itsbinghebitch]

the biggest thing to respect about msp is how consistent they were with tinn's characterization. my boy stayed thirsty to the very end

#my school president #bl.txt

[itsbinghebitch]

be my favorite is literally like getting one extra hour of therapy every week. oh you're angry at the world? why don’t you consider we’re all trapped in a time loop of our own making where being kind is the only option and maybe you’ll calm down 

#be my favorite the series #kwan telling not 'you have many good qualities what a pity you only show the asshole ones' #pear's dad saying 'you can't have a perfect life because life is not a thing and it's not static' #kawi choosing to meet the scary prospect of intimacy with pisaeng with compassion rather than fear in this essay i will-- #bl.txt

[itsbinghebitch]

can we talk about charn being friends with hot lesbians. can we as people talk about that. can we have a conversation about it. a whole symposium about it.

#laws of attraction the series #bl.txt

[itsbinghebitch]

nuengdiao’s top 5 dramatic gay moments:

gets sloshed while absolutely allergic to alcohol because he has a crush and needs to make it everyone’s problem

refreshes his instagram feed every ten seconds for signs of palm instead of outright asking where he is

concocts intricate rituals (mandarin assignment) just to touch the skin of other men (palm) 

casually drops the most scathing bdsm implications in regular conversation. does NOT realize the effect they have on palm

the yearning. the sheer amount of pining. pining from the window. pining from the side of the basketball court. pining from the elderly club bar. get, and i cannot stress this enough, help.

#'lets do the assignment in ur room' he says #'so when i scold u no one will hear it :)' #like STFUUUU boy do you hear yourself #never let me go #please extend your biggest sympathies to nueng he is a theatre kid crushing on a jock #bl.txt

[itsbinghebitch]

two bros sitting in a generic bl mansion five feet apart cuz they're not gay

#laws of attraction the series #out of context laws of attraction #bl.txt

[itsbinghebitch]

hold on one minute.....

#only friends the series #god's own country #bl.txt #and that's on queer cinema beloveds

[itsbinghebitch]

gf and i agreed karan is lesbian coded because what sort of person responds "let's move in together" to "i have been reading your mind all along"

#cherry magic #cherry magic thailand #bl.txt

[itsbinghebitch]

just finished wedding plan and I have a couple of thoughts/feelings/complex emotions I need to express here--spoilers ahead [and many thanks to @the-conversation-pod for their wonderful commentary that made me give it a chance--I owe this cathartic watch to you!]

as a queer person from a conservative society I thought wedding plan was so so so special. in that--it very deftly depicted the pressures of being inside the closet in a small community where word travels fast (also posing unique challenges for lesbians in more traditional societies, which is why yiwa's story and the few nuances around her beauty/perfect femininity as currency made me shed several tears on MULTIPLE counts). but what really sealed the deal for me was this show ultimately depicting queerness as a journey: an uphill battle for Lom that he ultimately wins not solely through romance but through the power of community.

from a writing standpoint, I was very taken with the contrast betwen Lom and Nuea, and how textual it is that Lom is attracted to Nuea first at Pai and Sky's wedding for his unrestrained enjoyment. Nuea enjoys food and his job, enjoys his sexuality, and is very openly queer. that is something Lom has never imagined possible for himself: he has, by contrast, a restrained white collar life with set rules and a single peek into his rebellious side in the form of wakeboarding. and so the way the story is set up, Nuea is not only Lom's love interest, but also almost an aspirational role model for Lom. as a closeted man, Lom learns that other possibilities for his life exist, that unconditional enjoyment is allowed, that there is now a network of people past Yiwa and Marine who will accept him with no strings attached.

my spidey senses tell me queer people have been thoroughly involved in the production and writing of this show because this has totally been my experience growing up closeted in a conservative country as well. I think the most hurtful thing was having no role models (either peers people older than you in the public eye) and just not knowing a different life is possible. I had the exact same experience as Yiwa and Lom where I only saw two men holding hands on the street for the first time visiting western Europe. like Lom, I only ever felt free to explore and understand my gender and sexuality once I immigrated as a young adult. like in Thai communities as depicted in the show, the surveillance is constant and so deeply internalized. it changes the conception you have of yourself. this story very much felt like two actual gay men learning from each other in a way i've only really seen depicted in very few QL shows--Lom learning how to be freer from Nuea, Nuea understanding how Lom and Yiwa navigate the difficult situation he never personally experienced.

overall I felt really seen by this show in a way i can't say i've felt about a lot of queer media i've watched this year and beyond. I loved loved loved that wedding plan gave us a true range of experiences and a set of queer people who went above and beyond to protect each other as a de facto family unit and really wish QL will continue depicting the complexity of queer lives in the same way. 10/10 recommended-- one of the best watches of 2023 for me. i cried a ridiculous amount of times

#wedding plan the series #bl.txt #GO BE GREAT IN YOUR LAVENDER #this is probably gonna be my only show aside from moonlight chicken and she makes my heart flutter I'm giving 10 on mdl this year

[itsbinghebitch]

i'll say this a million times, idc, but this man's narrative relationship to fire feeds my family, waters my crops, will single handedly solve climate change etc.

#bl.txt #had to rewatch that next episode preview like ten times #laws of attraction the series #charn's fire motif beloved

[itsbinghebitch]

preliminary thoughts on be my favorite (because i really do think this show deserves involved analysis not a few scribbled notes): but the complexity!!! a show that respects its viewers. there was no miscommunication trope, just people hurting other people because of decisions they made even after careful deliberation. but no amount of careful deliberation can change the impact your choices have on other people’s lives. kawi and pisaeng’s tough conversation at the end of this episode left me in tears because it recognizes exactly just that, how hard it is to be someone among others at all. no matter how many times he’s traveled back and forth between past and present, no matter how many calculated choices and variables fixed, kawi can’t find an optimal timeline where everyone will be happy. everyone has their own demons to confront, pearmai has to learn to deal with her mother as well as accept kawi and pisaeng getting together, kwan has to disentangle her complex relationship to not, not has to become an actual adult and not the manchild he currently is. 

one step in the right direction doesn’t fix everyone else’s journey. kawi is not the main character of life. 

#be my favorite #someone somewhere needs to draw a comparison with moonlight chicken because the themes Are There #i do have a bone to pick with the bl penchant to paint the mother as the one to leave the family for personal and career success #as it doesn't ring very true to reality where fathers tend to be the ones doing that usually #but that's just media in general bcuz portraying complexity in motherhood makes it 'about gender' or 'about motherhood' and not just #a 'neutral' story /s #anygays i am hoping the show will tie it up more neatly by the end #love pearmai a normal amount #bl.txt

[itsbinghebitch]

the scenes of vegas and pete laying down next to each other after sex have lodged themselves so deep into my subconscious i might as well put them in a locket and gaze at them longingly when im out on errands. it's about the vulnerability of laying yourself out all open and defenseless! laying next to someone who is so objectively incapable of seeing from your perspective, someone who has hurt you and humiliated you and discredited your subjective reality and still choosing to take that risk. pete's insistence on his truth, "i just live in the moment," knowing full well vegas will reject it. vegas being AWARE he doesn't understand pete and still wanting him. ardently. i will kill

#happy new year #im sorry i should be pouring all these feelings into my wip instead but i was overcome with incoherent emotion #vegaspete brainrot again #bible's acting choices brainrot again #when will it end WHEN WILL IT END #bl.txt

[itsbinghebitch]

a moment of silence for all the candidates for president who might have actually done something useful with the position. instead we got tinn, a horny teenager who uses 99% of his time to get the attention of Some Guy 

#my school president #bl.txt