#brokeupwithhim

[consolersofthelonely-blog1]

a tribute to a past lover, unfulfilled love and a journey back home.

I miss nothing about you.

your empty hugs

your empty kisses

your empty promises

your empty love

you are a hollow human

bitch?

cunt?

kill myself? never

no one loves me? I look around and see a crowd- a sea of bursting hearts with my name on it

memories of my past happiness stopped at a red flag and confessed:

“I can no longer tread here. it is no longer safe for me. If you continue this way, the future hold no happiness.”

I shrugged.

I knew no different

and so I drudged along- always looking back thinking:

“maybe one day happiness can catch up. she has to right? happiness can not be final.”

or so I thought.

once my mind could no longer create fantasies of a love which would never exist, I began ripping other parts of myself apart

It took some time.

my mind?

gone. tired.

my heart?

barely beating for you.

my body?

slowly crumbling.

I have now also become hollow.

again, I can’t help but look back at happiness- before you.

and happiness ahead of me- after you.

I crave her warm embrace.

I crave her stability and comfort.

happiness has been waiting for me all this time.

I thought happiness would catch up with me

I did not know that I must find happiness until I had no other choice.

the choice between familiarity and happiness does not, in itself, seem difficult.

however, the journey back to her is pain,

tears

begging

letting go

crawling back to the parts of your soul that you thought were lost forever.

so I start to walk-

backwards and ahead all at the same time

the path that I now walk is lined with hope and curiosity for what is ahead.

I start to feel the warmth of happiness as I near closer

I walk faster

I start to run

until...

I finally meet happiness at the end of my comfort zone.

she looks at me,

smiles and says

“welcome home.”

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[ginaisgaby]

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