#but even within that laudna (and marisha. and ashley. and sam.) see that he's scared. he's scared of jiana. he's scared of the past.

[vethbrenatto]

This group that you used to work with, the Nobodies, do you resent them for all leaving you? Absolutely fucking not, I would have done the same. They very, very smartly took off and I very, very happily took the debt. It’s what you do for family, you fucking take care of them.

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What happens your past trauma does not loosen their grip? I suppose my first instinct would be to break its fingers.

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I’m out.

#critical role #bells hells #creations #ashton greymoore #cr spoilers #c3e33 #4-sided dive #c3e32 #laudna #marisha ray #okay so i'm sure this is not the most clear throughline on a gifset but i did want to make it #so i'll explain a little in the tags #ashton's life and story thus far being so determined by FEAR. #as in the caption we get this thing from very early on of their trauma with the nobodies and how they say they'd do the same #but we also hear they took the debt FOR their family. a person who would do that wouldn't just run and leave family behind would they? #and then the convo with laudna and HER fear. and his response that he'd break the fingers of his trauma. implying facing it head on. #more words in the direction that ashton would fight rather than flee alongside his barbarian nature #but even within that laudna (and marisha. and ashley. and sam.) see that he's scared. he's scared of jiana. he's scared of the past. #and then in e33 after being downed so fast by otohan they can feel it happening again #and their fear reaction drives them because my god it can't happen again he won't be the fall guy again he has to leave to get out to RUN- #we keep seeing it: the perception ashton gives off and the words they say contradict them #and it's INTERESTING